I Request that No One Recommend nor Reply to this Post Series-Part 1

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There is no need to panic truly. But things have gotten to the point where I have to say something, because this is all so indirect and intangible and it looks like so many things breaking at the same time with very few people sounding the alarms in the right way and those are all people like me, who are more or less directly or indirectly in the path of a juggernaut of stupidity with no relief in sight.

A war of economic attrition with rarer forays of violent brutality is what I am worried about. But the former increases the odds of the latter.

A super secure bunker or a billionaire sugar daddy and doxxing attacks on unpopular people like myself, could work out for you, in which case some people in there will ensure that no matter how much you try to destroy information by pretending everything is a deepfake and ai

This is not kayfabe or insanity. I wish I could go and work. I have a sometimes malicious antagonist inside my own head at least who mocks me incessantly when I engage with society in any way that is not dullest routine. So you can be sure I take no pleasure in this foul task.

I infuse it with personality and humor only as needed to communicate what can seem like threadbare insights (that would be the malicious antagonist inside my head I referred to)

Worse, my hope is that after some writing that makes my heart pound as it so uncharacteristic (I hate unnatural animal behavior), I can return to the comfort of my own research and all I will remember soon (as this is so unpleasant a chore for someone of my type) is some melodramatic and vague screed online (the antagonist inside my head is more vicious than any other. Nature intended me to be a dull woman who does dull things and I protest the avalanche of self-serving, inane, opportunistic human stupidity with occasional forays into equally senseless undirected malice, that has reached a crescendo of mindboggling all sided human stupidity that tries to then blame some clunky “ai” and “agents” - can’t fool all the people all the time you dash dash dashes..who stuffed those stupid “smart things” in everywhere destroying all accountability and regulation? You guys are unbelievable..Seriously man..You are a totally amateur type of evil.

But this transactional exploitation of the Idiocracy has already lead to the death of one person who meant the world to me - my mom. She had an excellent oncologist. He is my oncologist, because he is one of the few people I trust completely.

And don’t stalk me or him..idiots. You will be mocked mercilessly if uoi

I don’t exist in a safe secure corridor. I have to guard my anonmity and life with dubious 🙄 exercises like these that I can only perform when I
glum enough

It is not depression. This society is depressingly stupid with pathetic attempts at malice, but being a jester is a scary position when dealing with a goliath of muscle and stupidity that can smack one down

But I am not a joke person and while I come up with tragicomic strategies for dealing with whatever a kraken is like concluding that while Sundar Pichai, Elon Musk and Jeff Bezos are all candidates for the kraken, Pichai might be low hanging fruit, not because of racism so much as..

I post here and am genuinely grateful to EarlG who I support fully and who can always count on such mediocre kraken skills as even I can try to muster up. And I trust him enough to permit me


I use this board because I trust EarlG/Skinner and elad not the Democratic party per se. As a formerly publicly funded


And as I have no intention of ending up like poor Dr Fauci who was altogether too respectable to deal with this, if my respectable strategy fails I plan to randomly throw arbitrary people to the kraken..Isn’t that the mood of the times?

But I never make false allegations etc. This stuff of using dry facts and statistics is not working out.

And only someone in animal survival mode as I am can even attempt to pull this off.
It is unthinkable to me that another person in my network faces further economic attrition or worse because of this mindnumbing stupidity. And I could not live with myself if it was because I either said something when I should not have or did not when I should have.

I live in a state of constant internal tension which I can handle with just enough breathing room. Most people who choose professions like science are very intense. You feel stupid all the time as is.
But it should not be the kind of stupidity where you are yelled at by blustering fascists or morons with no damn self awareness who keep shifting blame and hoping no one will ever say “cut it out”.

I have seen enough. I request your ears ladies and gentleman, whatever your race, gender, caste, creed, religion or even political affiliation if you are more or less honest and decent and care about anything but the most solipsistic, selfserving and senseless notion of survival.

Please do not keep trying to find me unless you have clearance. Because that is an alarming sign of poor data hygiene. Further it would completely invalidate my function as a citizen scientist and affect other people in my network you projecting, attention seeking morons. A few people know who I am and that is enough.
Do not..I repeat..do not pull this bullshit if you do not know what you are doing and thus far my sense is a subset may and a subset definitely don’t (I shall get into sparing no detail) and the rest need to at the very least get a message because I am starting to lose patience.

It is one thing to make genuine errors. I have made many. It is another to not care at all and be so deep in kayfabe you cannot tell what is real and what is not. Please try to redeem yourselves to the point where I can at least spare most of the morons provided this is never repeated again.

Do not try to pin the blame on someone else for your greed, opportunism and malice.

Not one thing
The only time my gloom lightens a bit is when I see the stuff you are still unbelievably trying to shill as “ai”. The ai winter cannot come a day too soon and without a cottage industry of Solaristics analyzing these things as all worthwhile research gets defunded.

I have lately been eying Josh Hawley in this blind orchestra of malicious nonsense as a Republican who unlike disgraceful people like Mitt Romney, Rand Paul, Marjorie Taylor Greene, has some genuinely populistic instincts if he can work in the bipartisan way with democrats to lower electricity costs.

I have no interest in even visiting the United States again. There is no point. I have already visited once and it was interesting, fun and useful.
I like Americans and I love Yasha Levine and Evgenia Kovda but I also really like Matt Stoller as much as I like Alec Karakatsanis and Briahna Joy Gray (;-/ someone with a version of my own penchant for getting kicked out of eveywhere).

But I try to not get kicked out at least of DU which is as reasonable a balance as I can find.

I notice everything as I try to avoid this nightmarish hellscape that has driven me to post online.
And I would not start my own blog and hope that if I ever overstep a line, EarlG sends me a blunt email telling me To pipe down. Or dumail from
MIRT or hatrack or rhiannon etc saying “silence jfz9580m).
I cannot manage without trustworthy colleagues in any realm I dubiously enter.


And I am very well to the left. And I love left wing media which is the one place where the moxios influence of corporations and politicians has not destroyed all reality. The left that balances as Nathan Robinson’s Current Affairs (minus Yasmin Nair and Musa Al Gharbi -sorry this is a burgeoning slow emergency not a moment for testing out disingenuous self serving curmudgeon personas as a replacement one has ton

If you cannot distinguish between Dr Fauci and climate scientists and your own bullshit on substack, you are not a real curmudgeon but one with as corporate friendly an effect as Lyman Stone etc. And it is a shame to lose the nicer curmudgeons like Bill Maher and Ricky Gervais for this type who embraces the culture war while pretending to be against. And always portraying science wmd

But I cannot any longer endure this stupidity from so many sides that I sit back slack jawed.

The stuff Hawley is doing is more useful than the broken theatrics and bullshit symbolism behind this broken model of immigration that is useful to grifters like Steve Bannon and Cato. Lowering electricity prices and banning TikTok are fighting the good fight whatever the EFF -a fraudulent and awful Silicon Valley astroturf group -says.
I was listening to the wags over at chapotraphouse and wondering how to put this so it is clear these are not vicious attacks so much as - this is too stupid and way less fun than


It has goaded me out of my untidy lair where I sit hating everything. And it isn’t a conversation dammit.
You are all collectively building an unlivable society and it is no longer possible to say the sanest thing is to shut up and work hard for jobs that no longer even exist, while someone thinks it is a bright idea to go and rile up a short tempered random like me who has no wish to speak truth to idiocy.

Come on!

Locally I have been looking at Ajit Doval, the national security chief in India because these rollouts look like a genuine security risk to me. He is the type of person my dad likes and my dad and I get along very well..a real world example of left-right cooperation inside the same house. He does watch a lot of rubbish on tv. For all that in a crisis he is pretty good. This isn’t one yet and I would rather it never ever became one for all the people in my local network - my doctors (though never any hospital admins

And if you are worried about being scapegoated unfairly I am your friend whoever you are. But if I cannot even ever have a say because I get kicked out by the dumbest and brashest people..

This stuff of throwing samples and yelling “This is rubbish! Garbage!” That is not real muscle. It means you are a terrible manager who blusters and generally an avoidable and awful human being. These bullying sycophants have too much power.

I loathe having to be all..I am Serious! But I can’t take anymore of this unbelievably stupid crap.

I am overtly on the left, but I can respect honest conservatism in the kinds of fields that left-leaning people like me rarely choose- military, police work, cyber
I choose and always will the dullest kind of publicly funded research. But I have seen your “ai” and that thing seriously should never be a reason to defund real research on climate change for this rot an ass like Elon Musk or those morons at Palantir push.
The same inefficient, inelegant wasteful investment while destroying millions of years of animal and human evolution.
No ai went into this writing. But a lot had to be systematically pushed back inside my head to bring it back to its baseline sanity.

I would argue to say Josh Hawley (the only republican who some serious errors aside) is not entirely engaged in pure kayfabe that as Peter Kalmus pointed out in Current Affairs not a right wing rag that a climate crisis that escalates the refugee crisis will further destabilize every country in the world and I don’t have a bunker Senator Hawley. So if people like you could work with democrats like Sheldon Whitehouse and appease your base I would be less worried as an Indian with no desire to migrate anywhere (though just for my learning I do like to travel - you do understand more about how everything is breaking if you do) this race to the bottom model of immigration is destabilising my own life here in India.

I request you not to alert on this post DU. I am not pushing Hawley. I back Elizabeth Warren, Bernie Sanders, Talarico etc.

Hawley is not wrong about TikTok. EarlG posted about electricity prices the other day and at least Hawley and Blumenthal



I have a lot to say because without it being the failt of any scientist, doctor or basically honest human I have met in the last 14 years, I have suffered loss after loss after loss…and now I can see more ahead and well Cassandra sounds like a really annoying person with no survival strategy.
I picture her as a kind of annoying knowitall.

All I am saying is that as of now I have never had to throw total randoms under the bus unless this counts:
Hey Hennessy, your OnlyFans page is rubbish! It is garbage! Do something you jerk. If a prolific snoop like you doesn’t know how to help who does? Hat tip to a feminist I admire a lot as opposed to the lameass girlboss- Evgenia Kovda .

I used to think I hated John Hennessy. And then I saw a video of him and realized that he is not actually a bad guy. Unlike all these counterfeit nerds who are actually tabloid friendly creeps with no gravitas, Hennessy is I suspect is not a bad guy.
Of him at least I can actually buy that okay this guy really has no clue how humans think except for the 2 million X, I work 1 billion hours a week and have no sense of humor producers balanced out by various sycophants with some worried humans with both specialized and general intelligence in his orbit.

I would not talk to academic elite except my mentors and best friends and I avoid even them these days and
The last I was this worried..

Common Hennessy..Earth to man.
Sighs…

Something needs to be stopped and we all have to work together to exactly find it and end it with only the truly maliciously self serving blamed, the truly blundering and brash getting defunded (think Harjinder Singh-I have never met anyone like that in my time in the US. I left the US in 2014 for the last time).

Please stop destroying worthwhile things for garbage like those data centres.

And stop calling me crazy or childish. It fucking pisses me off. I get to be profane and like this!

I have the right to not see endless stupidity all the time.
The awesome Andy Nikiforuk and Yasha Levine who get how to allot left right blame as opposed to self serving embrace of Mitt Romney, are the reasons I have brain cells.


Hey you demon Hennessy..Like in The Good Place I want a pact with a demon and he is the best quality demon I have seen.
Do I seem disrespectful or like a standup comic you..you…damn reallife Sheldon Cooper. Damn you Hennessy..you dope.

Lina Khan is not a dope. You are a dope with your duuuuuur mouthbreathing forays into human behavior. Pony up man! This is believe it or not a compliment from a big tech hater.

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1. All or Nothing is the Issue

As is a form of “winner takes all” ahistorical thinking. One reason I respect journalists like Yasha Levine, Christopher Ketcham, Andy Nikiforuk or Ed Zitron who cut through this noise is the sense of a person all parts of whose mind work together to understand reality. Evgenia Kovda and Marina Bolotnikova are the same.
I feel the same way about Nathan Robinson, Alex Skopic, Troy Farah, Chauncey DeVega, Matt Stoller, Alec Karakatsanis, Briahna Joy Gray and many others.

Whatever their human contradictions, not one of these people (much like Timnit Gebru/Dair, Emily Bender, Yan LeCun, Ryan Williams, Rollo Carpenter, Amanda Marcotte, Anand Giridhardas, Victor Tam, Clayton Dalton, Josh Silberg, Tim
Wu, my liege Lina Khan who other than the Humane League is one person who moves fast and fixes stuff, Andrew O’Hehir, Nicholas Carr, Evgeny Morozow, Madhav Gadgil except he passed away, Jill Filipovic, John Naughton


A disparate crew I threw together as I watched the world in alarm wondering where sense can be found as people who can be counted on in crises.


The haste of outrunning something mindnumbingly stupid and with no awareness of it is forcing me to use a kitchen sink approach where each one of the people I mentioned above is a unique and talented human. But it is bad enough that I lost all this time and my mom. For this avalanche of stupidity to cause more economic att

I have a personal affection for Yasha in particular because he somehow reminds me of a beloved colleague who taught me how to use shared instrumentation without breaking anything.
That was the pinnacle of achievement of a largely chequered career. I am going to finish a paper no matter what, but it is harder with a totally banally lame nuisance that is portrayed as apocalyptic.


It is apocalyptically stupid yes. There is a lot of malice in life, but I have had just enough privilege and fortune to avoid it. But it is all kind of a wash at this point and I refuse to court directed malice on top of undirected malice and random bad luck.

This is getting really lame-everyone in this society is a brainless muscled jock or a histrionic and I protest all of it.

This too big, too stupid approach is not working. I learnt a useful thing or two from John Naughton, Anand Giridhardas, Jill Filipovic but you can’t follow everyone. And I stopped following Naughton mainly because anyone who respects Elon Musk is dead to me. I always hated Musk. These guys with traumatic childhoods who never end up coercively shrinked while clearly having serious issues, while I keep getting called insane or a bot unless verfied by stalkers tick me off. Why isn’t Musk being forced into therapy and rehab?

He is way stupider, crazier and far more destructive than I could ever. Maeve Higgins got it.


I am dealing with something I cannot see, most of which I unambiguously want gone asap without some moronic UFO researcher blaming 5G, enabling an equally moronic corporate shill of a hyperlibertarian who then disingenuously points to the dumbest kind of criticism to stop any real kind.

Everything is conserved one way or another. When you have to entertain an idiot-an ass of a contrarian or a clueless person, you have to then shut out someone with genuine insight.

And these societies are clearly run so that the hard forms of worthwhile and healthy growth are choked out of existence for the dumbest methods, the worst kind of bulk and batch processing that is such a ubiquitous fucking nuisance dammit.


With this much snoopy surveillance, it is an outrage that so many bright people get it and I have risk being misinterpreted as a knowitall by various wags when I am just saying why is no one pointing out how disingenuous so much discourse is when they have to know.

To keep whaling on the same points that are going nowhere when this rich data set of mindboggling stupidity is available..


I have attained a level of shrill that should please Atrios.
I owe a deep debt to Yasha Levine. The Guardian review of the lovely and charming Deb Olin Unferth.


It is such a pleasure not to have to call people stupid but I will do it! Just because I am a solitary and unpopular person doesn’t mean that is disingenuous rot should fly while it disables and destroys everything worthwhile that as a awesome and cool Troy Farah got is so non local that it is hard for the public to work out what is going on and I won’t be assigned the demeaning label of Crazy Woman Yelling at Clouds you damn brainless fascists. Hennessy I am this close to throwing Pichai to the kraken. And presumably he is your friend. The other day I was sitting around feeling irked and I come out and randomly see that dead-eyed ass talking about “predictions” and without any ai or tech, I made not a prediction but a commitment to throw that guy to the kraken if shit hits the fan. It is a real shame that Zuckerberg disrespected and lost Prof Lecun. He was the only person keeping the thinking human from moving Zuckerberg up on the cannon fodder list and buying up all of medical research with your pampered trophy wife, cartoon good immigrant moll Zuckerberg is blatantly deviously stupid.

As Yasha Levine pointed out a society that chooses immigrants like Priscilla Chan while making life hell for visitors..

I wanted to see the world out of interest.,what are other people and cultures like.
You are building a world of faux meritocracy by destroying latin america, accelerating climate change and refugee crises and polemicists and demogogues exploit..The genuinely Turner Diaries friendly crowd whose incompetence is the sole saving factor.


Because our organs of communication are beyond diseased and now it is ..

I promise myself I won’t delete these. I stand by it!

Increasingly the voice in my head is sometimes that part of Abba’s “Hole in your Soul” where she goes “THEY ALWAYS SPIT IN YOU”

This isn’t comedy hour but ..well..you know kraken or something plus every damn thing breaking and


I WON’T STAND FOR MORE OF MY FRIENDS, FAMILY, COLLEAGUES AND NETWORK GETTING SHAFTED.
It was bad enough that this happened to me.

But the three labs I worked in were genuinely decent. NOT LIKE AN OPAQUE MORON/CREEP/some decent human army that gets to make far too many decisions affecting everyone and then adroitly covering their rears, use a mix of bullshit strategies, blaming dumbass ai agents..

No accountability.
And glorifying fucking China while making life hard for the nicest Chinese Americans, the nicest Indian Americans, the nicest African Americans, the nicest Latin Americans, the nicest White Americans and sucking up to a criminal billionaire class and parroting a pile of mainstream bullshit so lame that it is driving people to malicious conspiracy mongers online..
Damn you all! I have to borrow from dubious performance art adjacent strategies which creeps like that awful traffic snarling creep artist use. That guy is a total creep. If Google pretends to find your criticism legit it is bullshit.

Hawley is better than Google.. At least Stoller likes him and the democrats do have to not ignore real info i.e. that if Reid Hoffman etc shut down the real base, Hawley ..you know.


I am not breaking board rules or “influencing”. But I don’t want Trumpy Indian businessmen like the totally creepy Shalab Kumar or Vincent Palathingal or Ragy Thomas etc using an era of deregulation to use a malicious thieving mix of a type of bogus intelligent design and creationism adjacent poison that boosts worthless entertainment over trustworthy and secure infrastructure.
These guys are a national security risk as someone like Ajit Doval hopefully recognizes.

I am unapologetically on the left, but I can appreciate and identify conservatives who are less likely to make my life hellish as opposed to these disgraceful people like David Brooks and Mitt Romney who finetune the act of ship jumping and make it look like truth to power.

And it is forcing me into this and it cannot be sport or failed dammit. You all have no survival instincts..damn you all you lemmings..
I stand by it 😤
Eek

That is usually inside my head. Sorry to all the kraken food. Society..


Increasingly it is not just your shit, its also mine..my street, my home, my medical/academic/travel data, my devices ( screw you you damn price gouger Cook), my person, my awesome brain..


I don’t want my small local network -my medical mj company (what is colonialism is not English, it is an archaic narcotics law from the British Raj..what is colonialism is these dumbass tech and other companies getting a free hand as well as creepy Pegasus etc. As for communists or the joke of a “left” here, I have never seen peoplw more encouraging of the worst types of private enterprises and as heartily for deregulation. Beef is not a left wing issue in the age of climate change.
Conveniently always throwing away the hardest parts of any world view that require effort while keeping the worst. There is no such thing as Brand India and people who say that should be fed to kraken.)

Worst of all in my microcosm where people of all religions work together peacefully without an ass like Alex Pentland exploiting it is endangered. During that stupid pandemic my Muslim GP whom I really respect and like started becoming cold. Probably malicious slander. Some of my favorite doctors are Christian and Muslim. My family is Hindu and a collection of unknown creeps have no business sowing discord.

When I was in the US it was the same..it is not your bullshit kayfabe fake reality. All the people I met for the most part were decent-white, nonwhite, male, female and yes Republican and Democratic.
As you can see from the specific lefties I follow my politics are not ignorant or insipid, but I don’t go all “Billionairee are awesome let leopards eat faces” because someone who is not convinced by your rubbish media doesn’t agree with you on what is right for them.

Every human I know irl one way or another Limits their own growth so they are not a burden to society.
The disabled and poor are not a burden to society.
Limits to Growth are real. It is not “freebies” for the poorest of the poor that is breaking reality you solipsistic, narcissistic dickheads..

These morons at the top gaming reality are a burden.
I have tried to stay in my own lane and limit my growth and pay my dues in sane and ORGANIC (not bloody AA and prozac and bs you crazies) ways ovsr and over again.
And still you spill into my lane and take me hostage and scapegoat me.
Admittedly without being aware of it but undirected malice is still malice you nutjobs.

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2. TL; DR. NT

[jfz9580m]

3. No way!

It is not long enough! More on the way!

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4. Truthier than Truth

SAFETY DISCLAIMER
ATTENTION: ANYONE WHO READS THIS DRIVEL AND TRIES TO TIE THE ACTIONS OF SOME RANDOM VIOLENT LUNATIC WHO MAY READ THIS ABSURDITY OR TRIES TO HOLD ME OR WORSE DU LIABLE WILL SOON FIND OUT THAT THAT IS A TERRIBLE MISTAKE. THIS TRUTHY SATIRISH MOCKERY OF THIS ABSURD IDIOCRACY. AND ANY CREEP WHO GETS EXCITED AS CREEPS DO WILL BE METOOED INTO OBLIVION.

This is for adults only, but not in that way you lame, horny sadsacks who get excited by any random shit online..sorry..essential for crowd control. An honest Trojan Horse declares itself as such…


Btw in acknowledging the influence that Yasha Levine has been, out of a bias that as a Deep Green I have assuming that we Greens are always discounted if not hatefully ans malignantly smeared as ecofascists by boneheads, I have failed to acknowledge another equally important influence Christopher Ketcham, who made me realize that this is animal survival. And that apparently among other reasons the internet sucks there exist romance scams. Hat tip to the awesome Evgenia Kovda for her piece on camgirls btw.
Most professionals feel a bit icky about a web full of creeps unless frontloaded with creep bashing.

I get along fine with most men-civilized, even harmless bros..but every once in a while a brainless creep comes one’s way and it is so much work making short work of such..

Any creep anywhere is warned with various consequences so slink off you moron. And as I keep explaining to my dad who is the only conservative man I know well, it is not about men who aren’t creeps but the in my experience rarer creepy types that rile up all the other males. More on that later. This mountain of stupid with bad tech on top is…not something that stupid creepy GPT thing could ever handle as I, a human, with millions of years of evolution behind me can..

Why would I engage in these unambiguously dubious exercises given the behemoth of devolving stupidity one is confronted by relentlessly?

I am drawing myself up for another hour or two of yelling mostly at John Hennessy because someone has to do something that isn’t a bogus, unscientific blatantly put up job.

I think about Hennessy a lot. What sort of man is he that with all the brains and muscle he has he basically is adjacent at the very least to an Idiocracy.

And I have come to a conclusion rightly or wrongly. Which is that he cannot even get his own biases.
Okay this is not truth so much as truthy.


But I figure it is better that someone non malicious like myself throws together a truthy mix. None of what follows is necessarily anything but truthy with a left bias for a change..There is so much right wing truthiness out there there has to some balance.

And this isn’t the usual bullshit as I will drive in, in the real world..Don’t ask me how yet but I have finally thrown off the shackles of a type thought process I will explain later. I am using all of my brain now like Lucy!

Someone like Timnit Gebru or Emily Bender would get this but I figure I might on the whole be more cutout to yell at Hennessy as someone clearly shoved into the jester role.

A reason the left is losing out to a sort of demogogue and polemicist is the insistence on always being exact and loaded with facts and statistics when dealing with people who don’t bother with a fair fight on any level. These are less threadbare insights by this point as finally freeing one’s mind of a set of suffocating damn shackles as a former liberal, then progressive and now Green leftist. I sometimes eschew labels and sometimes embrace them.

As I was chatting to DUer PCIntern earlier I am testing out an inelegant lurching gate probably to perdition but ..Anyway..

I don’t make false allegations or character attacks but I am finally okay with trolling Hennessy. He looks like he could have a sense of humor and HE OWES ME! Damn him!
The number of ridiculous bot or not and sanity tests I have had to endure because of his stupid, creepy, thieving Google..I still hate Google but Hennessy seems like the most palatable Google type.


These people like Timnit Gebru are sweet and trustworthy humans but they are a bit serious and it is clear that unless Hennessy is relentlessly trolled it won’t get into his friendly to Dominion Theology/Intelligent Design and Creationism fathead that in these moronic things, just because your stupid Willow chip can simulate a lot of multiverses fast it doesn’t follow that it is okay to favor the most heartless shit with a frisson (hat tip to Alex Skopic) or figleaf of Wonderful Pistachio art(hat tip to Yasha Levine).
Anyone who reads this screed should support Christopher Ketcham/Yasha Levine/Marina Bolotnikova (though never Vox which is pure evil like that pronatalist fathead Ezra Klein)/Evgenia Kovda/Nathan Robinson/Ed Zitron/Alex Skopic etc for exemplifying as the animal rights movement (The Humane League etc) does, how to frugally make the most of minimal resources unlike this clunky, inefficient, inelegant data centre rot with copious amounts of thieving data collection and scant returns as federal workers are harassed and fired by a brainless billionaire.

I used to be more fatalistic, but the last 14.5 years have lead me to conclude that if the next 14.5 are permitted to go on like this, none of us nor the planet can survive this war of economic attrition, insecurity and occasional spates of brutality.

There is one wing heavily backing kayfabe/disgraceful 3-body style exploitation of confusion and theft and chaos driven seemingly perfect prediction “fine tuned” by engineers and favoring bullshit, monarchy, aristocracy

Read the rubbish I write at your own risk because this is such a shitty instrument that there is unfortunately the risk of total idiot not getting that this is a call for recognition of the absurdity of this never ever violence.

You will be cringe and also found and sent to prison if you read this become violent and it ends up getting tied around my neck or worse DU’s.
Reader beware, if you are stupid or violent don’t expect to escape and re any other sleazy type just because I am engaged in a form of high risk performance art do not expect to tie some morons violence or brainless conspiratorial reading of what is truthy mockery and that too in an already poisonous online hellscape.

But I do disapprove of the Sabine Hossenfelder/Bobby Azarian/Melvin Vopson/Robert Lanza/ Michael Levine types.

Michael Levine can shove it. Don’t give annoying interviews to Hearst’s Popular Mechanics about Alien Minds living among us, making this overripe mixture of rubbish that churns away even worse and then whine about being attacked by Ai agents like that Shamblog guy.

I am all human and guys like you who drip with three body problem style contempt as your fellow travellers like that ass Thrun destroys education with edtech and that woman Frances Chance thinks dragonflies exist for the building of shitty weapons systems piss me off.

No wonder The Discovery Institute wing likes these science influencers who I interpret as favoring Intelligent Design/Creationism/Dominion Theology/Theft and junk growth with fraudulent “fine tuning” by engineers (hat tip to a sciam article I read) sleazy entertainment gambits commodifying life and exploiting a mixture of theft and lies.

That wing is favored versus evolutionary biology as distinct from creepy ass evolutionary psychology (hat tip to Lyta Gold who is correct about the loathesome metaverse) shilled by persons like Robin Hanson who should shoved to the kraken peacefully and non-violently. This is the wing-natural scientists, ecologists, evolutionary biologists, real tech critics like Yasha and Zitron, actual artists like Kovda, which is consistently underfunded and silenced unlike your douches.

Only a brainless moron would interpret this truthy mix as a call for violence or a serious attack on anyone except that they are all stupid morons adored by a chronically indecisive protofascist denying troglodyte like Hennessy.


But the reason for this is my home. My family has owned the piece of land I live on for 150 years. And another property for at least 200 years. And a third property for around 150 years.

And yet in the last 14 years I have not felt that my home is my own and it is a goddam security risk as well as a threat to my livelihood, worsening climate change and ecocollapse.

We can learn from the errors of the West here in the global south instead of copying them on the one hand and shrilly

THIS IS A CALL FOR AN AI WINTER FOR ALL JUNK AI. UNLESS IT IS YAN LECUN, HENRIK MOURITSEN, RYAN WILLIAMS, KIRSTEN STAD, MADHAV GADGIL etc certified IT IS JUNK.


Stewart/Colbert 2028! I am tired of stupid people and their fraudulent “ai”.

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5. I did a lot of soul searching

To figure out who I am during an existential crisis and I came to the conclusion over and over that there is no getting away with it that I am a bit of an ass…

Not in any malignant or ideally inconsiderate way, but I have lots of strong opinions, stubborn rules and

But unless you are a billionaire or one of the 50 or so people I bash in these posts for being public figures I feel broke reality for many people and most outrageously for jfz9580m in whose advancement and well-being I take an inordinate amount of interest.

But the point is we are all passionate people in this community and I would never hurt anyone’s feelings deliberately. I respect and appreciate each one of yoi despite our differences as fellow human animals navigating this foul hellscape. And broadly most humans as long as crowded hellscapes are shunted away from my own solitary existence.
Ironically I have to be more open and social (hopefully temporarily) to retreat to my lair and live out my life quietly.

I truly used to try to keep my drivel to myself, but then it all became really complicated and now I get it. I got shoved out of some places and well I am still indignant about some of it. But one reason I hate move fast and break shit is the break shit part. You can move fast as long as you don’t break shit or steal from me except in a way I would consider Jean Val Jean adjacent as a one-off. But not like a creepy libertarian pirate herded mob..

But my point is you are always my guest to take action with expertise or more knowledge to keep jfz9580m from being a nuisance as I would hate to do that.

That aside I figure if one is a bit of an ass one might as well use it efficiently to shove some creeps around a bit. I take full responsibility for my asinine ways..
I try my best with the strange relationship I have with information by now, guessing a bunch and using the past to figure out how to thwart those creeps..

It is unbeautiful in the extreme. But this media environment and its fraudulent lies and deceptions are goading me to pushback till I can extricate myself from crap tech and all the wrong humans and go on my way with my secure from junk.
A scientific object lesson on the limits to growth in the microcosm I inhabit with adequate real security rather than a hyper secure, creepy, unnatural cult that breaks the web of life, real ecosystems and organic human social webs with clunky tech, is my goal.

But as I grope throw the dark, not being dumbass ai, I always need correction and feedback from my friends and colleagues and neighbors!

[jfz9580m]

7. Solidarity not Solipsism

So much of these societies are so broken.
I am still not fully human in the sense that i sort of

But at first I thought I felt kinda dirty posting like this. But then I realized that I am still parroting some sort of lousy old robber baron prostitute adjacent aristocracy or someone more nouveau riche like Zuckerberg’s /Bill Gates’ molls/Clare Wu/ Fei Fei Li/Sheryl Sandberg/Neri Oxman/Lucy Guo
etc.

This type of robber baron gangster tacky elite -they think that it is all fancy and elite having some sort of shitty insipid medical charity that destroys and buys up the type of medical research that used to occur under people these turds have harassed and smeared like Dr Fauci ( I avoid all elites not being a suck-up but just a moderately trollish internet rabble type..I used to and will continue to keep it strictly professional and never break any walls with the old genuinely wholesome NIH I knew not whatever creep or pervert fest that MIT Media Lab type and this sleazy celebrity/wealth and leadership and real tacky icky player type…

I am squarely dirtbag left with no aspirations beyond returning to my own field and never formally acknowledging the shit I now throw around online because some one should..

It sounds overly shrill because these people are really gross. With that hateful Project 2025 that mediocre nutcase Russell Vought and ugly asshole Elon Musk and those brainless morons of DOGE, have forced financial insecurity on a lot of people.

As much as I bash these platforms and a specific type of dynamic, these are hard times (the book Usha Vance did not like..Usha should really think some about what it must be like to be scraping by in this landscape).

I was fortunate enough to come back home because my parents were public sector workers in India with good healthcare and pensions.
I am not going to be shoved around by technofascists and their bogus woebots and Andy Ngs..fuck those guys. Hennessy..You are an ass.

A lot of people who didn’t even expect this are now going to have way more financial insecurity ans however they manage, anyone decent has full solidarity with them when these total fucking prostitutes and parasites who work for these shitty ai and other tech companies (except cybersecurity I cannot think of one useful service in that bloated and thieving sector).

So in this emergency, to be all fancy and professonal is not actually.. Like that is this gangster’s moll pearl clutching.

I would MeToo anyone who got familiar and I am en route to a complaint and legal precedents not to be like this sleazy princess type who is basically a parasite/gangster’s moll, but buying her way to the top. I agreed with Evgenia about that camgirl person.
But it is shitty that so many people are broke and worried about things…I try not to think about it.
Maybe things will turn around.

Down and Out in London and Paris was one of Orwell’s most haunting books if not best known.

But these guys are parasites and this is obscene. And Hennessy ought to be ashamed of himself. Do something you jerk.
Blackmail your fellow elite and tell them that hoarders are the dregs of human society and not lameass art and charity.
You need antitrust regulation and..
Well I have no idea…do something you snoop!

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8. Infodump from yesterday (lightly edited to delete any false notes)

Narrative exposition is a ways away.
Strange experiment ;-/. Like Fox News, I report, you decide!

I tried to get this bloody Ulysses under control but it kept getting away from me.

I want to wrap it and send various threats (mild), condolences and solidarity..mostly the threats but it takes on a damn life of its own.
Its all human!!!!! And that is not a case for ai!
Its a case for someone doing something about something somehow..
I have to think..
The gist was, I am not ..No creeps and junk growth
Damn you all..you make an unlivable society


It is not an early warning system dammit! Nor comedy hour damn! I seriously have to throw everything out and stand all my grounds (including that, I am fond of America, but I am never again coming there, but you affect society and have a lot of creepy Indian businessmen and your immigration system is broken and officially on the cusp of driving a global race to the bottom), while making various semi-joking points to ward off kraken (?) here, there and everywhere..
What did I do to any kraken beyond what some(horrible humans) might consider an obscene amount of marijuana and what I consider just the right amount to endure the rest of you damn lemmings..
And I have to bash creeps, shoo away gadflies, and potentially appease (gulp) bristling, non-creepy male types with short fuses..eek
And still not concede..Jt is my stuff..not yours
And you are all too daft and dishonesty
And your ai..that thing…I see it..I think.
If that is your ai, that thing shouldn’t exist..
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EarlG will understand and forgive me for a final series of brutally honest posts after which I am gone. Or that is my daily hope.
I am hidebound to the point of stupidity sometimes.

Maybe this is a time

At some point soon I do have to leave even DU permanently because this is not my normal function and if my normal function as a regular (not bowel movements, but hard science..humor ;-/ to make various unpalatable truths and truthiness go down better without dilution).


It would anti-climactic to hang around and continue to make super awesome jokes I fully back about throwing all sorts of random douchebags to whatever a kraken is 🤭, but I do have to go back to my real life.

But I can no longer pretend to be a random poster. Over the rest of the next week or two I will write up everything I have to say and then I am gone to thwart, foil and confront ;-/ various creeps/frauds and such irl..lol..well that is the hope.
Then if I ever do post on DU, it should be worth it for EarlG, not a drag. I don’t think this is a drag.
I am sensitive and I tend to get driven away fast by male creepiness or a sense that I am a nuisance. But without that, to say stuff that people with a stake or those who cannot say much (but are genuinely nice people..I am not sure I can do much beyond ..hang in there ;-/. Yasha said it to me long back).

Sorry..I have found my inner voice and in general I agree with any human who agrees that it should be silenced as a rule. One of our family jokes (we are or were a close knit and private family of three people -mom dad and I- i never expected to post this online and I am only doing it now to generally mock and ridicule and trash everything).

Because this was and is filled with self serving opportunism..I thought of Hennessy and started laughing 🤭..anyway..where was I? No..For one of those cree..people you could do worse than Hennessy. I don’t think Hennessy is a creep.
He is my friend!!!! No I really don’t think he is a creep or at least I would be shocked. He seems a little thick-headed but well..computer guy..


It is a super idea to recruit me by the way into these sleazy things. Except the dirtbag left of the Yasha Levine/Nathan Robinson/Chris Ketcham/Evgenia Kovda type I cannot think of anyone who would consider it a good idea to recruit me into these things.
Which means I end up getting accidentally KO by the communication effort…

Anyway, as a child I was taken to a concert and my mom had to whisk me out for pointing and saying “Bow-bow” ;-/. I was kind of a horrible child.
History clearly repeats itself.


But I posted here out of genuine respect for and faith in EarlG/elad and Skinner and I owe them honesty as I wind up and move on. And I respect other DUers. All of them or at any rate I would be shocked if they weren’t anything but the usual squabbling left or the best type of effort wrt bot control. Shoutout to me buddies Rhiannon and Duppers.

So I am not a cynical troll (Hennessy and all the kraken food may disagree - hey better them than me..I am an expert survivalist!).

It is just funny..I remember years of mechanical posts that in no way had any connection with how I think.

But Trump 2.0 and the genuinely positive influence of Yasha Levine/Evgenia Kovda/Andy Nikiforuk/Chris Ketcham/Nandita Bajaj/Adam Becker/Nathan Robinson/Troy Farah/Marina Bolotnikova/Alex Skopic/Ed Zitron/Nicholas Carr/Matt Stoller/Alec Karakatsanis/Clayton Dalton/Chuck Palahniuk/Briahna Joy Gray/Chauncey DeVega/Paul & Anne Ehrlich/Rodolfo Dirzo/most of Current Affairs/Jon Sanbonmatsu/Bill Maher (he donates to animal rights causes! This media environment has driven him insane! Come back to the light Bill! The IDW is clearly kraken food!)/Ricky Gervais (I sympathize with much nicer curmudgeons who get alienated from the left by the vociferousness of all the specimens of insincere kraken food out there)/Deb Olin Unferth/Andrew O’Hehir/Amanda Marcotte/Jill Filipovic/Anand Giridhardas/John Naughton/Timnit Gebru/Emily Bender/Tim Wu/Shoshana Zuboff/Phillip Agre/Peter Putnam/Yan Lecun/Josh Silberg/Ryan Williams/Plork Blogspot
etc have restored me to my old self from circa July 2011, such as it was.

I like lists! I may have a disease! I go a bit overboard when I make lists! Well I do engage in crowd control (the devoid of imagination were just kicked out in my mental gallery for asking “is that a delusion?” Off with their heads!), but I also do get overwhelmed wishing I could boost a very large number of people truly for no reaason beyond..eh..fellow sufferer in this hellscape…yeah.

But I have some super strict rules: No creeps. That is a zero tolerance zone. I never went on a date with Asiz Ansari or worked for Matt Lauer.
An unprofessional relationship with any male is unthinkable.

so I ..I do not understand Me Too issues of that kind. Those are for someone else to worry about.
But well as this goes on..bad jokes or profanity ;-/..Creeps are banned. No creeps.
But even Derek Black changed. Given a media environment that actively fosters bigotry and hate from all sides, I post to lower the temperature where it is not creeps or the various samples of kraken food I offer up (not an AirTel offer because AirTel is just my phone company not my bestest friend ever. It was them or Jio and I fucking hate Ambani. His son’s wildlife refuge is a disgrace. Gold toilets are for kraken food. And to have a wedding that costs 17000 or was it 170000 times the average Indian’s annual salary, in a country this poor as noxious economists such as ..oh well..some overfed pig sitting in the US and talking about “Freebies for the poor”
That is disgusting. A much nicer economist from JNU said that helping the poorest of the poor is not a freebie.
And I am worried about India going this same brainless path. And with the wrong kinds of business minded NRIs making things worse

To the point where I have started thinking about Josh Hawley’s pest control functions after reading a Time Magazine article last year by Stephen S Hall on how to appreciate snakes this earth day
lol..No..I genuinely like snakes..That was a compliment.
EarlG knows I would never use DU wrong. Other DUers would understand it, even with our differences, if I explained that I have seen things that are mindboggling stupid and need to say some things. Whether you are JI7, SocialDemocrat61, irisblue etc or any DUer..this is not a call out. You may not have seen as many stupid things as I have and so you may not have my perspective. I am not better than you or anyone and I am not being greasily manipulative because only stupid people insult other people’s intelligence with such gambits. I never call out other DUers or broadly anyone but the specific kraken food. Live by the sword, die the sword. I am an openly anon coward 🤭
But as a veteran of friendly fire more than unfriendly fire back when there were any faces and not just clunky machines (I hate machines like these..more on that later), I challenge anyone out there on this- I have seen more stupidity than many many others and you can’t take my crown away from me!

It is perception too..I attribute things to what has been the bane of my life, stupidity more than malice. If you have seen more genuine malice, I concede that spot to you. And malice exists. In fact I will be talking about malice a lot.
But my understanding by now of how malice actually works is ..anyway

If I am going to do this, I will give it as sincere an effort as I can.


Anyway, years ago as I said, I was put in this position where as someone who knows exactly who they are, but is a bit hazy on specifics, I got confronted with the question- _”who am I? Why do I think this way or that? Lastly, how?”
I am getting clearer answers to the first two. The last remains elusive. My ex who likes to rib me (not Adam’s rib..like tease) says it is generally a bad idea to give me ideas and I agree with that.
A very horrible man called me a child early Dec 2011 and I have not forgiven that! 🫵💀🏴‍☠️☠️.
No..he wasn’t horrible. He was another scientist whose patience was wearing thin and I can understand why now and as a gesture of genuine support I am considering befriending Josh Hawley, who I hope has a sense of humor. I like snakes!

This is also a warning I suppose. I am posting this not in violation of DU’s TOS but as an honest take on how people in survival mode think.
Because I do not want this race to the bottom that is global migration to degrade my home in India.
I am never migrating anywhere, though I have not ruled out visiting Western Europe just to learn more science and see more of the world, but only democracies where I don’t need a secure corridor to not run the risk of harassment.
I choose life in the real with its risks, but I never accept a state worse than the previous one seeing as I am not in a war zone but a dull, sleepy little Podunk town which I hope stays rhe same over this type of growth.
I am also considering sending a DU friend request to Ajit Doval. Eeek..My dad likes him and I am worried about security if things continue in this way.

A uniquely human and honest insight and guess is I suspect better than clunky machine predictions. My brain which has protective alleles against schizophrenia I suspect has millions of years of evolution behind it.
What does that piece of clunk GPT have? Stolen labor and infliction of its Freeze-Fawn-Bore and apophenia?

Fight and flight was all me ;-/. More truthy than truth but with an avalanche of truthiness from malicious parties with no serious checks and this correctly but unfortunately meticulous approach of real scientists and doctors and their careful communication, ol’ jfz9580m has to wade into these waters ensuring that not one false note creeps in.
ChatGPT faugh! Nastikoff Bah..I spit me off Nastikoff. That was PG Wodehouse. I attribute unlike that clunky piece of crap.
I think I have seen that thing’s ai now. Yeah..
I will need expert help to throw it out or resolve this with no compromise beyond my new bestest friends-Ajit Doval, Josh Hawley and Hennessy.
No..I didn’t mean that disrespectfully.

Hennessy and me (English!!!!Google Translate sucks! Use DeepL instead! European Union PSA!!!) are best friends. Pony up you old snoop! Name names damn you. But well this is a dicey situation and there is no need for panic as my dad told me to think of crises.
Kayfabe would be a crisis. It is human brain rot to not have a worldview that is neither paranoid conspiracy nor kayfabe and athletics.

I am not a Serious Person..I tried those personas all my life and they didn’t work. The jester with enough muscle to 💪 destroy any bullies or creeps, real or imaginary or worse as likelier, fools who break things by moving too fast or too slow but never just right, worry me.
In 2026, finally I have a better understanding of sciences too complex for me to truly grasp that I am doing this.

I would recommend Phillip Ball’s latest piece in Quanta Magazine. This trollish (based on what I read) antagonist Bobby Azarian, talks about apeirophobia..,Fear of infinity. No it is fear of stupidity.
Everything in nature is interlinked and conservation/stop signals are the hallmark of healthy growth. I read about Tejas Thackeray in The Week and immediately liked the guy.
Ed Zitron also gets it.

This is inanity and insanity..superabundance, infinite growth and it masks an ugly truth that most of the planet and animal life in factory farms are familiar with and now poor old Tom Massie who was booted out of this imaginary gallery for my bestestest friend Josh Hawley..I used to find Hawley terrifying, but he is not a fool. To at this moment in time back corporations and junk ai and China/Russia not humans in the US or India is a mug’s game.
I love Yasha Levine and Evgenia Kovda who are too intelligent to need this explained anymore than EarlG needs to stalk me to ensure I am not a russian bot or Ajit Doval needs to use Pegasus to ensure I am not a Pakistani plant (though I do love Lina Khan and my most helpful shrink, who prescribed Adderall was from somewhere in the middle east ..).

I am uneasy in my mind, but ;-/. As a citizen scientist fighting against stupidity on steroids..last April 20, 2025, a random date with no meaning whatsover (I love Andrew O’Hehir!! 🤭 . Seriously intelligence-the real thing not a sad Grok or DeepMind IQ test (Yan Lecun is cool! This would have chilled my blood..Getting fresh with Yan Lecun or Steve Chu and genuinely respectable scientists.. sorry..the kraken food are kraken food for a reason and none of this is anything but satire. All pearl clutchers and violent types are banished).


Anyway where was I? At this point I really should read Ulysses. Anyway I was a bit disoriented and trying to figure out wth is going and strained by Kleptocratic pile ons who think people will be defined passively by that pile of kraken food adjacent to my bestestestestestesttest friend Hennessy, who pretended I have a mental illness

With genuine apologies to my fellow DUer JI7 who seems like a really nice person, but who has different takes sometimes on people Mitt Romney or Bill Gates, who I just see as kraken food. We have different experiences and I stand by mine. But it is never an obnoxious callout. That is being a jerk and except a relatively small lost

One of my rules is: Never attack real people over mere differences of opinion. And while many DUers have different views, I would never attack or disrespect anyone on DU, because I am not running for office or a media thing and in the real
world civility is non-optional for me unless something crossed a boundary indirectly or directky which has made me categorize you as kraken food.
The bar is already really low: No creeps, no charlatans, no humans with no self awareness, no attacks on ol’ jfz9580m (what kind of masochist would choose that irl?), no opportunism, NO transactionalism (this is not a sweatshop or marketplace for flesh..sounds a bit biblical ;-/. The Bible has some good bits as the chick in Georgette Heyer’s A Blunt Instrument says. I liked all the smiting parts. I want to smit Shyam Palantir Creep Sankar and Kush Desai 🤭! because NO stupidity.
Errors, assholes, jerks I am already resigned to.

But if anyone is going to be kraken food (as Denis in Sunny in Philly said..that’s how those guys talk! Unleash the kraken..what kraken? Where? Why? I will be the kraken you jerks and pick off the lowest hanging fruit whom even I can defeat in a popularity or general intelligence contest) let it be those guys.
Mitt Romney and his “make life so miserable for immigrants they self-deport”..what kind of asshole talks like that? That was the year I left, but I had to come back to abandon my Greencard formally since I lost it..I feel like I should qualify for an Adderall presc honestly (the only truly self-serving insertion. I have rights! Fuck clarity and light pollution..absent any proof beyond “I want all of everyone’s space!” Even if I have to invent a mental health epidemic in order to do so ignoring all the simple reasons why corporations in Americans and the world over and destroying human health in every way possible.
It is not a mental illness or being anti-psychiatry or analogous to being anti-vaccine or a paranoid conspiracy theorist to see a shameless conflict of interest when a subset of the Google and Facebook creeps backing this foul surveillance state for the past 15 years, actually work with the worst people in mental health.
Nobody needs bloody Lybrate. My medical mj company I connect with via WhatsApp has done more
While Hennessy is a purely imaginary friend, thanks to Yan Lecun, I have friendlier feelings towards Facebook though Zuckerberg should be fed to wolves. He better watch it. He is not yet kraken food though his moll didn’t make the cut to fed to wolves

Hey this isn’t insipid hour. Look at even poor Tom Massie a total random I read about on DU. Oh yeah Tegmark is also kraken food. I am already safe.
Kraken food should just be mocked. But even Nathan Robinson says one can mock people!
Unfortunately, Yasmin Nair who lived by the sword has died by the sword for being a bullying jerk.
A perfunctory reference to “brown” people cannot conceal it when you really don’t actually give a shit and sharpen your claws on other people fecklessly.

An odd statement coming from me? Not really. Not one person in this is casually in there. Some of these people truly strike me as people making a fatuous and poisonous media environment far far worse.
Being left is about having a heart not just mockery of fake “big hearted” left with the fake curmudgeon persona. And these guys are turning it into a football match while even Josh Hawley..
The sheer amount of male and conservative outreach

And if you have had a hard time in any recent war or generally are having a hard time, I can assure you that within the ability (admittedly strained) I have had, I have honestly cared.

But I have a huge objection to the Beverley D’Angelos of the world as much as the fake Stanford curmudgeon “Sensible Person” of the Manhattan Institute (kraken food)
You seem to enjoy feeding people to kraken all too much jfz9580m. No I enjoy it the appropriate amount. As various extravagantly sensible Stanford girlboss types I have read in The Guardian talk about how one should neither be too much of a kraken chef nor too little..but just right!
(Speaking of which Emily Bender should sue The NY Mag as should Timnit Gebru The Wired for writing about women in difficult positions as thoughtlessly and solipsistically as possible).


The NYT loathesome as it is nailed Fei Fei Li. And David Golumbia was correct about Joy Buolamwini.



It occurs to me I will have to balance my real work with this by learning when to respond after this information swop. And it will be a good sign more than not when I am gone entirely..smeared out and inexact, but way less clunky than shitty ai.


Anyway, back then I didn’t know where whatever key to who I am and what my function in society was. Most random people do not have a fully articulated version of their world view, especially when they vaguely generally know that all this looks like a terrible idea but would be taken aback if asked offhand why and how.


I had to desperately scan what exists out there as mainstream and wondered which of these generally dishonest and insincere or controversial in the worst damn ways position is least loathesome.

Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert whose influence I can now ummmmm assimilate to address this in the only decent and realistic way it could have ended. Man I hope I can stay anonymous..


My colleagues and doctors are genuinely decent and I support all of them. But they are scientists and doctors. This shit is not really their scene because they are not influencers. They have no kayfabe and live in the real which is where I am headed to stick it to the creeps in some more viable way while leaving enough indication about seriously not to mess with me.

No. I don’t know how to say it without sounding ridiculous…But it is seriously a bad idea to mess with me because I am not a fool..I just thought everyone else was and it seemed pointless to try to cut through the kayfabe and failure to grasp when this ridiculous and alarming society accidentally results in someone who truly only exists in the real stumbling into this almost entirely disingenuous and fraudulent virtual world built by people where the best option is my dear pal Hennessy 🤭. By the time one is dreaming of Josh Hawley and even scanning The damn Federalist to figure out who one could be in this nightmare reality (The answer is not Zoolander! That’s self loathing! I found the answer in The Federalist of all places..I would be in the same category as the woman whose mom died during covid and who is now correctly mad that Andrew Cuomo has a radio show).

I realize now that my last mentor had a very subtle sense of humor. That is not sycophantic because I called him various unfair names over the years.
They were unfair. I am only belatedly developing subtlety overtly.

As a young, pompous and self serious postdoc, when he told me that I should stay and work in this lame hell because he could put me in touch with the most important people in the world, I was a bit nonplussed.
On the one hand, this guy has to realize at least by now that I am kind of a lousy postdoc. Why would anyone important in science not be horrified at this alarming specimen of human scientist being delivered up to them sans a clear explanation?

On the flip side, if he means important in a non-science context, aren’t those people in general kraken food and cannon fodder? At least in any Straw Dogs situation..🤭…It was clearly the latter.

I misjudged him. He is crazy, but he is not and never was any kind of sellout, but a fellow traveller in observing human stupidity at scale.
Phew. Can’t manage without complete faith in my scientific network. Man..I hope they are okay.

I am best friends with Josh Hawley! No? No..It turns out that Josh Hawley could have a respectable jerk control function in my estimation in spite of two serious errors.
Come on Sen Hawley..be the best person of your type. I am an unabashed leftist, but of your insincere and shameless party, you strike me as closer to having some populist instincts than most.
The electric prices, the ban on tiktok, snap funding (strange metaphor there about science funding..sad for what used to be a leader and should not lose out to China.)
I am never coming back to the US Sen Hawley..In that respect, I am closer to Indian kraken than kraken food which doesn’t seem to be getting through to these bullying morons. I don’t like being pushed around and scapegoated by people to my right who pretend to care.

But what science I learnt, I learnt in excellent NIH funded labs with no corporate ties. And Tom Massie is kraken food. ;-/.
I operate on strict conservation principles. You gain a Hawley, you throw a Massie to kraken for kayfabe and dismissing climate change.


I dreamt of Elon Musk last night..Yeah no.
The Indian govt will get a lot of grief from me if Musk, Shalab Kumar and Vincent Palathingal (a loathesome Perilaus candidate) continue to destroy my livelihood and home with other local creeps..

But anyway back to my mentor saying he could
I was braindamaged already and wondered if he was crazy and dutifully katfabed about how “Why would I want to meet someone important. I am an honest postdoc!”
Which in retrospect is exactly the kind of bullshit that some douche who does want to do all that would say. Usually it is these types who say “I will never sell out!” who do it first.

My actual reaction was more along the lines of well “okay I know I am a kind of lousy postdoc..but this seems excessively draconian. Wow Type A people are way crazier than I ever realized. These guys are a nightmare. There is ambition and there is being this damn crazy.”
But well..Type As are people too! Type A rights!🤭

I was legitimately a pretty ..well okay there I start to get pissed off..Well you know..i really did make a more than commensurate effort for any investment these shitty societies made in me ;-/.
I speak truth to idiocy!

I really truly did try and will, but not this mechanically ignoring how fucking stupid this is and I earned the right to be profane.


So now I don’t mind “talking” to important people because it is fun to troll Hennessy on my way out. Tell me what it is you snoop! Your OnlyFans page is rubbish! Its garbage! *throws samples at Hennessy*

That is seriously the worst type ot mentoring. But some sort of snoopy and draconian police state mandated by a series of douchey surveillance capitalists is worse 🤭. I mean thank goodness it was the Google/Microsoft/Facebook creeps then. It is Musk and Palantir now..

In my defence, there are reasons I was a lousy postdoc. I was defrauded by an EECS dept in 2000 to the tune of some 25-35k when I first got into grad school at an elite institution in the US.
I couldn’t get then that if that kind of tuition is taken from someone in the Global South, you kinda have more of an obligation as a department to ensure that the person (Hiya Dman!!! My “advisor”) gets some real guidance and doesn’t just flail about. That was my first brush with the privatization of education in the US and is still the worst example of it.




I am never migrating anywhere. I may or may not visit



But this is bullshit. The US model of immigration is beyond broken. And worse it is starting to acquire the sleazy and cynical vote bank politics of India. The Harjinder Singh case

And that is a shit deal above all for immigrants. Because unless you are deluded enough to buy into the nightmarish GOP thing, there is only one realistic political choice -The Dems.
But not all immigrants are liberal or left. Some are conservative by instinct. It doesn’t have to be the dumbest damn take on liberal, left, conservative though if there is a non civil libertarian and non crazy take on libertarianism and right, I have yet to see it.

So


This is using immigrants like pawns. If people vote Trump (same as with the condescending and cruel stuff targeted at poor rural white people-who in my experience are generally really nice) “Why can’t they see how awesome we are? Let leopards eat faces!😤Haarumph”
There is a page set up to deport Nicki Minaj. One may question the judgement of anyone who chooses to be anywhere near JD Vance 🤭..I am wearing a dress!!!! But it is the same football match, cruelty theatre dynamic. A lot of it is hard to peg as left or right and I definitely don’t mean it as those as those cynical, soulless prostitutes of the NYT would. But this is cato/aei/koch/bigtech etc using population explosion, a broken media to drive a global race to the bottom.


I generally detest The Jacobin. They are a type of awful state capitalist


I can say Ben Wray

I mean I get it. I also consider it bullshit when Lyman Stone/David Brooks/Musa Al Gharbi/Ted Goia and these blatantly phony & prime samples of kraken food cynically exploit “the working class” - a mechanically invoked “working class” whom no one knows to cynically shill their next books which have no connection to anything but will attack climate scientists/Dr Fauci etc and push pronatalism.

But it is also phony when their “left” counterpart kraken food Betsy Hartmann/Naomi Klein/Yasmin Nair/Aviva Chomsky etc talk mechanically about “the brown people”.
It is so depersonalizing..”the brown people, the working class”…who are these people?

If I don’t make a quick dash for the door, will I be next in this hapless pawn in these guys’ culture wars category? Would I be the “poor oppressed by white and male supremacy woman?”
Yup oppressed..That’s me 🤭
Well so that’s a non-starter which then means you are slated for Crazy Lady Yelling at Clouds!

Okay yes that is a far

You obviously conclude that it is all about this person. It is the same thing the always Andy Nikiforuk (who would never write like that)


I have found a political home
Much warmer, more fully embraces the Green and animal rights left instead of leaving one with ghastly options like that piece


I cannot see any human with any damn self-respect who saw and experienced everything that I did between Fall 2011-2012 going back to that country
But I emphasize that it was never America or Americans-I do not subscribe to these bullshit stereotypes of rural white American, Americans etc. That was not my experience and I was genuinely fond of the scientific community I knew (all in the natural or medical sciences).

And most people of all types have shallow, irrelevant to reality, dishonest, bumper sticker politics not just such people. And I don’t mean it in this dishonest fake curmudgeon Lyman Stone way.

I am here because I generally agree with DU’s mission. But most people I find have very generic politics that are largely a function of their background and whoever they herd with and views they parrot zombie like and which turn on shallow reasons.
Throughout this foul period I have only kept moving more left, but that became a lot easier once I found Yasha Levine etc something living and vibrant over dully staring at The New Yorker or dear god “The Atlantic” (a pet hate of mine.. Nathan Robinson hates it too!) and miserably thinking “God..I fucking hate this species”
Thise

If anything the sole plus

And I am not insipid or sycophantic. Nobody but nobody orders jfz9580m around! But I did feel



Your media and billionaires and corporation friendly politics


Disinhibitions

Honest conv

Homeostatic
Holistic




If there was a multiverse these


Seriously you don’t know me and you nece will
It isnt my nature to be angry, querulous wtc
My lens on reality is purely absurdist as a relatively fortunate human

But no one is lucky enough to weather knowing ypi guys



Thjs od yir honrfy convo
Hunch
Strongerr de huncg skbde mmetfirmi




Why should anyone appreciate your culture etc in foreign countries when you are too insular

These things are

If you “assimilate” but are a ahallow girlboss or boyboss narcissist
A 1000 microcultural

Whatever “white resentment” etc. But you arent any different
People are the same and a subset are these huge narcissistic pains and another subset respond to that. Wet markets are not cultural

My niece who is a very savvy and surprisingly worldly young persin aboit “cultural appropriation”,
“What are these people going on about? Thsre is a country of a billion people right here- your cul

If you affect any of my colleagues or friends or this one young psrson
I am

So there really isa lot of bs. All that stuff t

I could call out right wing rot but it would be redundant and pointless and not very honedt wgen i havd been far more terrified of one of these bullshit defenses of immigrants or non white people calculated to annoy everyone in a 10000 mile

It is not that in any way I fail to understand or skewer foolishness of any kind
The reason for thus fit

I refuse to be sitting duck for whatever this kraken are
What is so great about a genuinely awful person like that Vinod Khosla-a billionaire with four kids and a


I am an unlikely person to I guess crack any kind


I have not been inside your head so
Of you are a semi reasonable person you will finf that if you assess someone..lomg befor you assess -if this person Hindu/Muslim/Christian/Jewish/Black/White
You woulf probably find that you are assessing

“Is this person honest? Are they sleazy? Are they a basically decent

and trustworthy person?


And in my case, as apparently some sort of unfairly categorized as idiosyncratic person you would find though not a shit robot that claims that from microexpressions and keystrokes

Is this person or are these people just too impossible to communicate with


I can be kraken too! This is me finally flexing my kraken muscle! Because your collective stupidity, disingenuousness, sleaziness, callousness etc as as

All of ypi factory farmed meat and
You back the horrifying

Or yoi exploit issues like

At yhe start of blm there was a lot of genuine sympathy


But thrn got ruined by this online gadfly type that exists as much on the “left



One huge stressor for me in this peeiod has been male disrespect. Look I don’t come into your spaces and girlboss etc.
But I have never had transactional or sketchy relations with men, quid pro quos etc
I have now learnt the hard way aa well that solidarity etc can be misinterpreted if people are lonely.

I can’t really ever help anyone who feels lonely as I don’t really understand it. I am a solitary sort of person who feels loneliest and drained in crowds.
Maybe iy is that I genuinely miss yhe pleasant reveries and brown studies and it is non optional to lose them any further to this perpetual annoyung


We are goimg yo unambiguously work out some legal precedent here.




Life in the Burgeoning Surveillance State

1) First the absurd but with a significant annoyance level

I woke up this morning to get this message from my ex, with whom I am very. We are family even though we were not a good fit as a couple. We were not a good fit because most of our marriage was roughly like a surprisingly contentious debate I saw between Alec Karakatsanis and Matt Stoller moderated by Briahna Joy Gray. It was unfortunate because it was the rare debated


Anyway I woke up this morning to a message about smart underwear that tracks bowel gas emission. The type of thing that causes my ex an inordinate amount of pleasure. He is in every way a decent man, but he is a white male and I am an Indian female and I think these are what people refer to as cultural differences!
He probably would not mind a sensor that tracks his bowel habits. I would consider it demeaning to have such pointless drivel measured.

I mean jfz9580m may not be the most inelegant or glamorous female around..quite the reverse really but I have enough self respect to assert confidently that it is a very personal taste where you sign up to go around volunteering measurement of your bowel gases, stool quality, mucus release.

In no way, can this be considered a universal thing and the worst off people would be least able to tell the fucking demeaning, fascistic and whorish fucking cunts running these surveillance that “Listen you demeaning, bullying fucking twat. I am not signing up for some blanket mass surveillance thing chock full of creepy sensors distributed without the general public’s knowledge using ubiquirous computing basically to sell more ads and shill worthless shit like that puerile ChatGPT thing that only a complete rube would be impressed by and anytime someone in CS claims it is impressive, I at least think “charlatan/cultist/moron/excessively agreeable, civil and diplomatic”
I remember a time long before I had been kicked out of every system everywhere where I used to be diplomatic-ish. Never with any great succees and one can run the risk of being unfortunately transparent and possibly inadvertently a bit insulting in one’s peacekeeping efforts roughly calculating that if all these thorny, unpredictable amd short tempered people get at each others’ throats it can make ol’ jfz9580m’s (the pinnacle of absurdity - I have the brain of a left wing troll and for some reason Ol’ Orlick has been on my mind in connection with a detestable nurse and physiotherapist at a greedy, opp

Btw I am furious that in this poor hygiene data environment some asshole must have slandered me to one of my Muslim doctors whom I respect a lot, who would never be anywhere near any disgraceful Pentlandesque or kayfabe things.
Fortunately my oncologist whom I absolute love (as a doctor-he is married with kids and one of the nicest humans I have ever met. Sadly that has to be spelt out in these pervert fests out there..he is really cool. One of the most honest and hardworking people out there but somehow like most of my colleagues and doctors it is never a sort of brainless reproach against the disabled/badly off or even disreputable wags like ol’ jfz9580m. Slavoj Zizek should be fed to kraken..total creep. No wonder he liked that camgirl person. Evgenia Kovda is awesome. Now that is a women’s libber of me own type unlike the girlbosses.


But I digress - to weave back to the point at hand


A creepy little man called Paradiso makes various creepy non products and non services that I at least have no use for.


Incidentally a lot of these guys’ faces are no longer online
Some of it could be worry about creepy things like ClearView. Some of it could be in this Gift of Fear

But well


Someone like Alex Pentland/Fei Fei Li(she is one of the boys!)/Sheryl Sandberg etc might come up with a fake whoopie cushion

It has been a sort of hobby of mine to viciously guess products and services that Alex Pentland and Ben Waber would come up with in th



I am not here all week and I have to now go to pick up the pieces of

I am never even travelling to the United States ever again, unless JD Vance extradites me for not wearing a dress.
If I ever traveled again it would be only to civilized countries like those in Western Europe. And only if ot wasn’t a pity/bullshit job or a made up

As my best friend says..it is not just trend following..oh cancer is popular! Ai! There is
So if it doesn’t have to do with my specific line of research and

Maybe I will randomly luck out again someday or not. With the way education and science

Because I am not 100000000000x, I work 20 billion hours a week and have an organ that reaches all the way to mars and (this ridiculous movie I saw called The Materialists …human thought and the status of women has degraded so much in my own lifetime at this point.
I blame the essentially insipid brash girlboss as much as this laundry list of meninists and creeps.)



I plan to log off and focus on my own research

As of this date, I have done my due diligence by everything I care aboit

1) the role of women and visitors in stem research
Personally I think immigrants is an outdated term..visitors where people have enough resources to bail when these creeps and fascists go hardcore crazy playing chess with human lives. I am not contemptuous enough to have a term for any humans forced or manipulated into dealing with these pricks on their
Dead-eyed slack jawed moron for the types
And Perilaus


This noxious and brainless Yimby Freddie DeBoer who drips with self loathing as well as contempt fpr his fellow and is all fpr coercive psych, makes actual false allegations
Unlike poor ol’ wjo thanks to a mix of caution (the truth always prevails!) wrt people one dislikes and genuine decency otherwise And it damages MeToo when you do that and no one should support tjenkind
As is clear from this fine riff ol’ jfz9580m isn’t

I have no intention of letting a collection of men’s rights twats groom me for the role of Amy Cooper ya dig 🥺?
Shove your paranoia about “false allegations” up your fartarse you pricks
And don’t try blatantly disingenuous “but the language! I support women! This woman’s language is an outrage”
Is it that I am not wesring a damn suit. This isnt a bloody tea party or comedy hour (except in hell) you disingenuous, pearl clutching fraud.


Live by the sword die by the sword you fucking twat

Well okay it is not just a tonne of pot. I honestly don’t claim to be anything but a flawed, contradictory human being.
But I keep feeling like I am groomed to be some kind of fall guy or someone whom everyone hates for something going wrong.
And that is unfair. I can be glib now.

And I don’t think this will change anything broadly, but I do hope it will make my life easier going forward.


I try to stay in my lane as much as I can within reason. That is also my street out there and I don’t want your brainless mapping projects, influencers and bot tests on there. Fuck off and go annoy someone else man


A big part of my brain in male-female conflict, an unfortunate feature of life and it is so complicated.
I think honesty is the best policy to ease all our lives

I have learnt from bitter experience at this point that genuine sympathy for downtrodden male types can be misinterpreted and well that sort of sours things. And what begins as sympathy ends up getting close to contempt as I ..I would be a good candidate for solitary confinement over the Oscar Wilde thing
And I don’t like that.


Not to be all touchy feely. But I do have a lot of solidarity for my fellow humans..from a distance.


When I see some unfortunate blunderer getting roughed up by a mob for saying something daft I feel sorry for them. I feel sorry for all sorts of people..I never think leopards and faces.

But well..on the flip side I also don’t think scolding people accomplishes much.
If a strategy only works on hectoring, bullying sycophants, you are not getting the best people but a damn cult.

A huge influence on my life is my dad. He is a military vet (he was a commodore in the Indian Navy) and a professor for many years after.

He is actually a really sweet man and for all that he would not use that term, he is a feminist. These labels are sometimes confusing.
One thing that always pleases me about him is that he is always genuinely shocked at the thought of anyone exploiting or being cruel to women

He is actually very popular with a lot of people

I guess, no man is a hero to his own kids so I used to think he was kind of a bore ;-/. And more to the point, I used to feel that “okay you are beloved by all these randoms, but you barely notice that I exist”. Not a whole lot..because I am not querulous that way.
But I am very territorial. I don’t come and make free with your stuff and you can’t have mine.
So if some random ingratiates themselves that would piss me off.
I am only middleclass and I don’t have enough stuff for some sleazy random who tries to flatter my
dad. But dad is pretty savvy and (this whole thing has a point. Do you really think I would bore everyone with a generic sob story about a dully happy family and am entirely non lurid set of experiences?)


This is an increasingly resource depleted space.



But a few years ago, I started noticing that dad was - he had always been a really supportive dad. He knew I was struggling. But he started becoming weirdly unsympathetic.
And I wasnt doing anythint but sittint in my room triny to work amd gloomily hoping that Sundar Pichai (I alwasy hated that guy..he is a dead-eyed zombie..hey kraken that guy👉
I totally want to be a kraken traffic cop..come on kraken expend that excess energy fruitfully)

But I started noticing and well..
I am hesitant to wade into these junk tech waters because I dont think more cottage industries of analyzing and studying these stupid these things should be funded
Only Timnit Gebru/Dair/Emily Bender and Yan Lecun have permission to assess idiosyncratic crazy person non-blogger jfz9580m
And Ajit Doval - he is the only conservative (presumably) friend I have!! And well this is a security and economic war of attrition issue

With the bullshit muted-yeah I do not want to learn to code etc and have many rules. But I am representative of a large number of white collar middleclass females in stem.

I have managed to do some work over the years. And were I a charlatan or more likely unused to having a guage I could exploit that.

In my circle there were never any pis who absolutely did not deserve it and these are people who are cool. But I am scared of them.
Not scared ot them because they are ogres.

But well..to always be this person everyone hates who shambles up with a dog ate homework excuse and sub par work

Because these are people who without all this and unfair competition always stressed me out.
It is one thing to piss off a total jerk/creep etc.
If you are irking people like those that is definitely on you.

But then it gets all mechanical and like mimicking sole woman I have no desire to be whom. i tried

Well i dont want to piss them off. So if specialized intelligence is off the cards (god when I think of the years and years when I mechanically would


But if I am not a charlatan, in common with all these other guys, I have what can be a very annoying trait when you do not know

I can be a zealot. And I have the hardest time with that. Because all my life, it has been a simple “yes” or “no” thing
And as years of uncouth and bumbling posts attest to, gray areas and maybe always fill me with alarm.


While I have a chequered career behind me, leaving a trail of broken instruments and confusing posts, I have never had any transactional relationships or quid pro quos.
I don’t think it is fair to call someone pampered or sheltered. Rather this right here is the race to the bottom I am super leery of.
Fascism or transactionalism.
Last night I dreamt I was at an airport and buying sweets labeled Musk. A few weeks ago I woke up having dreamt of Josh Hawley..he is my friend!!!!!

Of the two I pick Hawley because Hawley has some degrowth of the right type instincts that I can respect as opposed to Rand Paul or MTG or Mitt Romney (a ship jumping sleazebag of the worst type)
And rather than have Musk Sweets in India, I would request Senator Hawley to not stress out my friends at the NIH or federal workers..
Come on Sen Hawley, give peace a chance. Steve Bannon and Laura Loomer are grifters.
I am as left as they come and humane not Freddie DeBoer or Slavoj Zizek (oh law and order leftist and tough on immigration are you? Oh you mean your mediocre “work” cannot compete with a flood of other mediocre non work..i’ll law amd orderyou

Society made me do this!!!! Troy Farah..Yasha Levine..someone help..you are a bad influence!

But to check this rogue’s gallery of obvious kraken food: Shalab Kumar, Bill Ackman, Neri Oxman, Ed Boyden,



I am never coming to the US again. These days I can detect a false note in my writing. I prefer zealotry to encouraging a race to the bottom.
I can take Hawley seriously. That Ketanji and Jan 6 thing was not cool Sen Hawley. And this vicious treatment of immigrants is hateful.
But I too think the US immigration system is broken. I absolutely think that poor white people are getting a bad deal and

I don’t understand transactionalism. But I can respect someone being the best take on what they are. Like my dad. He is a conservative man and as he says, a patriot. But he is a good man.

And this media environment is encouraging charlatans, ahistorical think at the expense of anything less like a brutal theatre of the absurd.

;-/ I am more cut out to be kraken - again, not in the stupidest fucking ways. I am not going to lift weights and ..it doesn’t seem to translate that I am not a fool.
It is just that no one has any defense against an avalanche of stupidity with muscle.

And I don’t embrace China as a super power, for all that I would support any truly bullied Chinese people as mucu as any, though not the mob symbol thing.

I don’t like mobs. They can’t be reasoned with.


Come on Senator Hawley..I don’t want any of the labs I worked in or scientists or doctors I knew or worst of all my ex-husband or my best friend

My mom’s death left me permanently worried about random bad luck with a side of malice or just plain old stupidity

All of this fills me with the sense of a tightrope (I beg to differ with Adam Becker on one point as I type with my human fingers) act’s tension and I will stop one of these days soon. I would like to think immediately, because I have my own work to do and if one does too much of this it sends the wrong message. That hey this person actually enjoys this shit (which okay..Like Ol’Orlick who was bullied and beat 🤭
I don’t know..I am not cut out for either the victimized female role or the excessively abrasive female (why would something that is annoying in those male boss types be appealing because it is a woman..that is the worst type of liberation. Acquiring the worst qualities of your oppressor..The troll thing..I blame chapotraphouse whom I only listened to once but well I don’t know them and in case I inadvertently break something I don’t want a real influence whom I am genuinely fond of like Yasha -Levine not Mounck (kraken food) being blamed. Sorry chapotraphouse..I don’t know you that well. They made me do it!
I am popular!

This was a horrible time. When there are no creeps, assholes etc around sometimes my dirtbag left side does come out. Coleman Spilde encouraged me!
I love the left..Ol’ jfz9580m would not have any breathing room without them.

Because it is not quite honest to blame any conservatives with whom as in the real world where people understand things I have had friendly enough (tacit agreement to shelve politics) or more rarely coldly correct engagement.
Hey guy-I stay in my lane and meet my obligations and you stay in yours.

And when I do try to support people it is never..

It goes back to my dad..It is also why I talk to DUers like our own PCIntern. The real world is way cooler. You cannot even have these moronic genuinely stupid rules like- no private sector 😤. Yes anything extra I do is going to go towards my friends in the public sector, on the left etc.

I love Yasha Levine (again …like my onc..this disingenuous pervert fest makes it hard to point out that only civilized male female interactions ..I am not going to say this again..as it is demeaning. I get into elevators with men all the time. If they are the wrong kind of men, then the question is “okay can take on ths piece ot kraken food?)

Which brings me back to - I have so many thoughts related to the last 15 years at this point and what I consider the relatively reasonable human female citizen or publicly funded scientist’s



EarlG knows me well enough by now I suspect to not see this as anything but not take the DU mission in the dumbest ways

I don’t believe in rule by corporation.

Except if it is my dad, conservative men fill me with trepidation.


I am already the belligerent lefty



(Lightly edited to remove any false notes. Honesty is the best policy)

[jfz9580m]

9. Contacting a colleague

Instead of posting on the open web, I decided to contact a colleague I met Halloween 2011.
He is a unpredictable guy..another of the type of person in science you can usually trust-thorny, unpredictable, prickly, difficult but still essentially honest, non-transactional (a loathsome worldview) and pragmatic enough. And zero male creepiness. A somewhat uncertain tempered type, but well I am not sure I should cavil at that. But he is someone I can compare notes with as likeliest to get the science better and it is better than trolling Hennessy online.

I really hope he gets it whole and unedited. It hadn’t seriously occurred to me that for no real national security purpose and only to shill some silly game or something (sort of thing these…anyway)

Or yet again send it to a spam folder or screen it claiming totally dishonestly that I am a bot or some shit.
Total bs. Apparently i sound crazy or like a bot.
Awesome!
I am just indignant! I have rights!
I come off worse online..

Anyway, I am planning to file some complaints.

I don’t mind any sacrifice for truly good science as even I would agree-that meets all the spec-environmental, democratic, not insecure..but not for this junk ai and more bullshit.

So I am gearing up for conflict and cooperation-that is reality..not all one or the other. And specifics are important.

And well in so much kayfabe, it sounds beyond moronic and bogus: “I am a real person!”
Sounds exactly like something a not real person would say, hence the complaints since no one should have to put up with this much stupid shit.
It is why I like Yasha Levine so much. And Nathan Robinson..and the left I like. They were pragmatic but also really solid and tangible.

It is not like this shit where now Cheney and Bush criticize Trump. They are both war criminals.
So yeah. A microscope is a simple instrument.

This is a real world lab in a society broken beyond what I remember from even 2004. And that is not a simulation or whatever.

I try hard to avoid such dishonest bs.
This guy was the closest thing to Yasha Levine I came across in this hell..

Unless it is for a science or legitimate or security reason other than, hey lets continue to pretend that is a crazy lady.
No…I am an unpopular lady not a crazy lady..salt of the earth!!!
Eh..it is 2026, the general population (me anyway) is getting restive…

But jokes aside, one person is already dead (my mom), this ai shit is a fucking joke and killing better science or worse the web of life,



I doubt at this point that locally anyone will be awful about narcotics..that insane worldview on narcotics was a gift of the Brits.
What kind of insanity is it to object to English, but keep the insane Western drug war shit.

Its marijuana ffs not bloody Fentanyl..
Jeez
And some tacky and bloated gaming/sports/entertainment etc things in this deregulated way

It is also creepy. I owe it to my marijuana company and anyone I actually respect to not get held hostage by this lame kayfabe.

Come on. Besides yes I am well to the left..but this is the real world not media or politics.

You are all crazy! The kayfabe has driven everyone crazy which is why I sound crazy.
I am a martyr!

No..I did try and as of Feb 2026 I officially give up this pretense that any of this makes sense.
Your Immigration system is broken.

This hodgepodge of racial, gender and political tensions is cracked. I am not insipid. The sources I have on my profile are the least transactional and honest yet pragmatic people I can find.

It is as if I go on NWOMax!! toget my news or am paranoid or misandrist (i have constantly tried outreach to this easily riled up gender..come on..)
There is no need to destroy anything that functions to keep the junk.


And ;-/…I have no intention of being yet another roadkill type. I already lost my mom and 14.5 years..I am always wary of being in some ghastly thing.
This is for the DU community, any scientific community it could apply to (but not that nightmarish Pentland and Rosalind Picard and Aaron Elkins types) and the specific sources on my profile and anyone decent I engage with locally who should know.

India or the US this for the smallest possible group of not insane people because I am worried. This in no way has not worried me.

Anyway..hoping this works or I will be back ranting some more and then go offline to work on my paper and start the process of qyerying at any rate and I will be as nice as I can be, but I am sick of suffering fools, self serving opportunists and hideous shit

[jfz9580m]

10. I don't really know what to post..lame

I have to think about this..yuck..embarrassing.

This is a personal emergency for me and has been for 14 years or more at this point.

I am grateful to EarlG for allowing me to post this and leave it to his discretion and elad/Mirt’s discretion how to use this data, which I hope is not behind a screen.
And hey local cybersecurity or whatever, don’t be annoying.

You guys are all awful. Anytime someone says something you don’t like it is all “pakistani bot! Russian bot!” Cut it out man..
Presumably you are male. Tbh I understand women who are in those fields and areas even less. I am a female (cis just for exactitude) and I don’t know what being male is like, so I suppose at some point one goes “well I don’t know”.
But I tend to think that if you are female and given more freedom thus to encroach and take liberties misguidedly calculating that there is an exact formula for avoiding complaints..there isn’t.

If most of my worst harassers have been male, so have my most trusted colleagues and closest friends.
There is no formula. You have to use your brain all the time and no clunky bot or algorithm can pull it off.

So yeah..There are no Pakistani or Russian etc bots in the mix.
I mean if you mean Lina Khan and Yasha Levine yes, I like them both and not being crazy I know they aren’t in league with Putin etc.


And Pegasus sucks and if you want actually good pr for India then letting me rant is better than listening (later edit: or contact colleagues without drivel at this end..there would be drivel enough at their end.. Josh Hawley is my friend!!!!!!
I have conservative cred!!!

I picked Hawley as the least transactional. I have no wish to go to the US. I just wish your …people..don’t use this period to start some sort of low rent, creepy thing here exploiting the narcotics war. I don’t want to have to go to my dad’s friends in the Navy.


i am pretty sure whatever EarlG is, he is not a Pakistani provocateur.

You national security guys anywhere can be a real piece of work. I am just saying..I see it all the time..If you don’t agree with someone ..Godwin’s law..
But in multipolar madness.

My dad is like that. I had to point out to him “Dad it is okay to dislike someone. But every time you dislike someone, it doesn’t mean they are seditious etc. That is lame”. I mean I am no huge fan of a lot of what passes for left anywhere.

But this is all stupid kayfabe. Snap out of please guys..hey I am cool..

But seriously you can do whatever you want in your lane, you cannot go on taking me hostage because I am unpopular..

And it is creepy..I looked up this like total creep (I could weep for the life i once had when I occasionally looked up things other than creeps) Vincent Palathingal and the ad that was displayed was “Sex Addiction Treatment” or something so..yeah..He is this like icky creepy guy and..
No it’s not a false allegation, but he is a huge supporter of President Trump (I am trying to be semi professional going forward..I am too lazy to bother to type this stuff up in professional language. I actually have no sense of humor about that honey badger stuff.
I really liked the old fashioned NIH and sorry to be stuffy..In my book, it is okay to be this bluff, salt of the earth, trash talking female from podunk india..it isn’t an abomination irl.

But to actually play up to this rot because one remembers to Dr Fauci..My best guess was Idiocracy.
But there is a lot of bullshit in American Politics.


I actually came back to India..I mean come on..I had an entirely uneventful time in the US.
And I don’t want to be Ayman Al Hirsi and be all “then I realized the left is hollow”..okay but so is she. She is a persona as much as any of these guys

Whereas Dr Fauci..okay he has to be polite to all sorts of people.
But he isn’t the slick scientist who is adjacent..

He is like most scientists I know..left or right..

This is all stuff everyone knows and the only reason I have had to say this and it is not viral.

I am planning on potentially filing complaints..

And well….;-/…it is all opaque but this is also bullshit.
This is why poeple like Colbert and Stewart
They really are normal people.

Or maybe it is that they are specifically like people like me. Okay they are white and male..but that is often not how people guage who is politically similar.
I ..No I always think the democratic nominee is probably better than the republican nominee. I am just saying that..

How peope like me think and this is another ..dammit..
My point is that one starts to assess how much better, along what dimensions etc


But that is something that woman Stepfanie Tyler say and God I hope she is a bot. If she is an actual person..lol..well..That would be unfortunate, but the feeling I am sure would be more than mutual.

I was pondering, if this pile ot junk was finally associated with my real world life..
I am sorry about the kraken food thing..
Well I am sorry..in normal mode..But you all have terrible political views and you post them under your own names which I never would.


I can go offline entirely and really I would honestly not care either way.

I care about people.I seriously seriously do.

But slobbering about it online isn’t really me. I thought of how I would do that and I remembered the Star Whale from Dr.Who
Elon Musk would probably call it a pedo ;-/.

No Musk etc are terrifying if they come and build something here with no Madhav Gadgil type oversight

I am really sorry about everything I threw around..


Anyway..My point is I don’t want this awful crap growing here in India and taking me hostage with bloody lame marijuana and

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11. Math

;-/
I am thinking of sending these rants to a colleague instead of posting them online. This is the one person who would be a substitute for these other people whom also I do not know: Yasha Levine/Evgenia Kovda; Chris Ketcham; Andy Nikiforuk; Ed Zitron; Nathan Robinson; Alex Skopic;

I am sorry across the board for everything I posted. I have rights!

No..seriously I like everyone and generally wish everyone well. I was joking about the kraken food and all the call outs.
I stand by it!

No..I don’t 🤭
I am sorry..I really think still that everyone thinks everyone else online is crazy. Or not.

To the extent that everyone has various “neurotic” opinions that for a plethora of reasons it would not be a good idea to post online.

I am really sorry about the kraken food thing-except about Judd Apatow. His movies suck.

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12. Hmmmm

I mean 14 years after I first saw what continues to look like an encroaching, extortionate, disingenuous rollout of technology that blames all the wrong things imo..

This is cultural appropriation of my culture of white collar, blah, leftist-bourgeois (that has to be a thing - hat-tip to Evgenia Kovda), english speaking, pot using, Environmentalist (an actual category of human damn you ;-/ ), women’s libber culture!
Ha ha..

Your model of immigration still sucks and it is driving a (by now global) race to the bottom. The planet is overpopulated. A lot of the discussion of mental health online and in mainstream media (if anything - I come back to Stewart and Colbert as an easy communication solution that cannot be easily commodified- there is no need for a Texas Cadaver Scandal in data making things worse by tacking on a Hennessy: The Musical) sucks..
;-/
I hope Hennessy manages to wriggle out of this one and throws Pichai to the dogs..that would be my recommendation. Because Pichai is an idiot. Sorry..But he is a billionaire. He will be okay.
Hennessy is better than that rogue’s gallery: Fei Fei Li, Peter Norvig, Anthony Lewandowski (ai God ..cracked), Andy Rubin/Amit Singhal (sexual harassers), Name Redacted (I know he slept with his undergrad..sorry but Google should maybe consider why their management culture isn’t immediately accepted with open arms- so cut out the pearl clutching..and I pay my dues as best as a “crank” who isn’t actually histrionic or kayfabe peddling, but you don’t have to be paranoid or a Taylor Swift feminist to consider these guys unfit in any sane society for more than a narrow say; that is not “MeToo hysteria”. That is common sense if you are female. Come on “bruh” -how is something about some totally random creep -Andy Rubin, about you -unless you are shilling an IPO for creepstalkersrus.ai, in which case it is definitely about you! Sorry..Truth Serum!)

These are not things that are anything like the truthiness of right wing conspiracy theorists.

Ruth Cain wrote the best and oldest article on mental health that encapsulates it from the left.
Efficiency!

I don’t want this to be a pointless excercise in self-gratification. That is already online and podcast and influencer culture and a cottage industry of lousy tech criticism and Judd Apatow and Chuck Lorre.

I don’t want to do this, but this is all really indirect and I don’t want to wait another 15 years.
I want this ended asap - ideally in a year. By Feb 2027 with an explanation.
But importantly, whether that is possible or not, this illicit construction with no explanation that doesn’t look good so far.
This is Kids Nation (Emily Topping).

I would never halt something if I thought it was worthwhile.
This was not worth it for me.


This frankenfood like trickle downinfonomics. Even from a pragmatic standpoint this is not worth keeping.
If i lose access to marijuana that is fine by me.

Though I would rather not.
This is pragmatic scientific math. But I am not sacrificing 15 years of my life, ignoring the death of my mom and getting shunted off to bullshit.
This has to make sense.

Like with mom and metformin. This is a strong hunch and it isn’t about lame stuff.
There is potential here for people I like..they are also the real world not only malls and factory farms and Hollywood/Bollywood or most of that junk. I have very specific types of people into whom I like to invest my additional resources and ..it is definitely Not Jonathan Haidt! He is an idiot! Cannon fodder..off with his head! 🤭
It doesn’t feel like the web or kayfabe if it is like Yasha Levine or even Matt Stoller ( my not far left cred!)..lol

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13. Stop Torturing the Star Whale (Metaphor)! This Post Breaks Board Rules- Please Don't Alert

Come on - please don’t alert. Then you cannot say that a human/automated or hybrid system (stupid damn orchestrated weave -Morse, Lightblinks. This is so inelegant a Frankenstein’s Monster (that is organic human connection. Thank you Evgenia Kovda. Please can you and Yasha certify me: 1) A real citizen scientist and a non-transactional, non-paranoid, not annoying but still uncompromising woman’s libber (Evgenia knows what I mean) in Stem; 2) A genuinely mediocre scientist-I would not lie to you or Yasha. I am a terrible scientist but if you read the two pieces: looped linear thinking 3) And this one pisses me off the most (hey fuck you Galluzzo..stop attacking the Ehrlichs along with idiots like Casey Phillips. You failed Sesame Streets these things are not the same because of some pronatalist bias that you Monbiot etc have when you don’t live in the Global South and buggies etc may work over there. But seriously, I had no wish to weigh in. Evgenia would get it. I am not anti natalist or a bigot- because that is stupid. A human’s logical system does exist and it doesn’t have to be crass or martyred or influencer. I like Yan Lecun because he thinks as I do. And with those other guys I turn into this inelegant Frankenstein’s cliche. But that is a lie.

This was none of it planned or orchestrated. That is how Intelligent Design shillers or genuine peddlers of nudge theory.

This is more old fashioned.

Lyman Stone is an idiot, but then so is Arundhati Roy. Sorry…
Look..I am on my way out..I am not being “brutally honest” like a jerk. I am not Fox News Fair and Balanced. I am not running for office..

It is a stream of consciousness with zero conscious effort.
The only “influence” is people from all sides (including apparently Josh Hawley.
Of course re Musk and Palantir- honest or bust. Musk may have been involved in this bts just like thr supposedly “liberal” people (Sundar Pichai and Zuckerberg totally represented me!!!! The distortions on the online web I see are minimal. And I don’t like deception unless it is means to an end I agree with.)
See this is a human stream of consciousness not kayfabe or performance art etc.

The goal of my life is to solely prioritize optimal effort going towards my line of work and ..I am not changing my personality or behavior.

I am happy with who I am. Everybody sucks at science and EECS stole my money and a year.

But my main mentor is the person I would dedicate anything extra I do and to a lesser extent my last mentor (I am not a joke just because I am not pi material! I don’t want to be a pi. That is too much responsibility. Anyway, I am not ever coming back to the US. You are crazy! By my own rules that I would not take a secure pet corridor.

I talk to PCIntern on DU..who is kinda like my dad. Yasha Levine is awesome PCIntern ;-/.
I was not being disrespectful.

But it would be creepy to secretly have a secure corridor over posting online.
Hey I use pot and look speculatively at people in computer science and in media thinking “Cannon fodder in a crisis or not?”

Seriously if you are strained and working in cybersecurity or medicine, I agree that these guys are disgusting. But a warning from a true friend..not that awful Fei Fei Li.
And I bully Hennessy. I am taking him hostage. Kinda jokingly (not really ..I am not really funny..I just try to be to get through.
I have no mental illness. At all. Somewhat short temper ;-/. But I defend it!)

The Luigi Mangione thing as Troy Farah gets it (less pearl clutching Troy and yeah I saw what you did there whether you did or not..🤭🫶
I love you guys..But no one including very left leaning people like me knows what a safe space or triggering is and as Nikiforuk said, maybe without any monetary input or shadiness

This doesnt have to be a joke. I dont work in cybersecurity. I am taking Hennessy hostage from tbe outside.
I am not breaking board rules randomly and they are not a joke.

Everything in reality is real. But Ed Zitron is cool, but Cory Doctorow and EFF suck.

I am pulling the plug on this because Matt Stoller in the end is my imaginary “right hand man” on all but environmental issues. And on science I trust Clayton Dalton (who I really hope is real and not someone’s conception of ..he must be real..) “Most left wing doctor”

And I am not a cliche like “most left wing scientist”.
I do think that politically you find sense compatible with this only on the left.

And to avoid a totally disingenuous “We are Serious People”, I am taking Hennessy histage for real.
And yes it is a joke and also not. Because I already paid over and over

And you can keep pitching these bullshit things. I am also taking Steve Chu hostage.
If you have a brain and don’t seem entirely indecent, I am taking you hostage because I don’t have the muscle for this or feminine attributes that would end in anything but being attacked from all sides.
I am not a girlboss and I am not oppressed and sick.

I get enough to get that Matt Stoller and Lina Khan and David Golumbia are right as are Alec Karakatsanis and Briahna Joy Gray (shhhhh we will talk some other day okay..I get kicked out enough without you ;-/..hugs. But these guys are not entirely wrong..and I agree with DU’s mission statement and trust EarlG..)
We really should all take Hennessy hostage if you are anyone I mentioned in this post 🤭

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14. ;-/ Truthy!

I am sorry I deleted hlth2b from an earlier post. I disagree sometimes with JI7 and hlth2b on politicians or politics. (Cheney? Really ? No heart transplant can fix what is wrong with that guy 🤭..No I support you all..I get the elders thing and I have no comment on age..I have no comment on US politics..dammit I seem to have inadvertently picked up Hawley..and no. Even if he wanted to, with his base he couldn’t take climate change seriously ans there is no saying with politicians if they will decide that a refugee crisis triggered by their climate change that ensures their election would be worth it.
But I hate MTG..the Fauci thing. Friends hlth2b 👍. I have some things to figure out and complaints to file but they are very specific..It is cool that DU has many people I disagree with but consider decent. Hello NNadir 🫡. Peace 🖖. I stick with issues relevant to me but I dont want a data centre nearby. The thing is I don’t think the light and sound pollution are just nuisances. It isn’t a lame Cassandra thing.
Upton Sinclair yes. Cassandra no. And this is depreciating the value of my assets for ME. And this is India. To you guys this is an abstract issue. For me it is direct and not symbolic. My mom used to want plastics banned long before
Please forgive me if I ever hurt the feelings of any board members. But this is direct and indirect and I cannot keep suffering what I at least consider a lie in that my resources are being sucked away.
And it is not truly confusing which is why I do not need a “matchmaker”, data orchestration pipeline..)




). And no ..whatever tacky Microsoft Or whatever gamer..hey bs you guy..I am not a ventriloquist’s puppet or a schizophrenic engaged in performance art.
I have to guess first, what of a plethora of stupid shit is most probable.


And I continue to.
But my purpose here does not have to do with Talarico vs Crockett.

Or any immediate political issue and that is useful. Because I am not American. I have zero stake in anything American except my colleagues and doctors not being attacked.

And with such exposure as I have got, if anyone in my circle suffered serious (aside from me..), then I will out my identity.

But till then…I won’t pretend this stresses me out anymore. Worst case, I am openly taking Hennessy hostage. If is even a twisted kind of compliment. I wouldn’t take him hostage if I thought he was stupid enough to think it is cute rather than a distant alarm bell Hennessy.
When you guys panic usually it sucks worse.

The thing is, I don’t have to be paranoid to think that as with the An



You can see why


This is not worth it for me.

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15. This is real life - it is funny because it is not a joke!

I don’t have a disease or artistic license.
I try to be a nice person (elleng was really sweet..she was very laconic but a nice person.

I am not laconic-I am the ranting type!

I always liked that one scene where the star whale’s tentacle touches a child.

Though the star whale had various misperceptions. It should not have eaten the protesters and children aren’t alsays nice.
See..even a star whale has cognitive biases..
Why wouldn’t you or I?

This isn’t about children but well..I do sometimes wish people doing worse off than me would know that many of us who are silent and stay away do care and it is a nightmarish hell online but in the media in general

It is a bit dishonest to say that a type of left doesn’t have some sway and get to push certain cognitive biases I dont consider left or right (in rare agreement with chomsky) but aimed at moving thjs junk machine forward.

I am not antinatalist. But nor am I pronatalist.
I am likelier to feel sorry for people without kids wjo are struggling and parents when they are like Yasha and Evgenia who are not typical.
I already sucked up a lot of shit for my mentors.

Whatever JD Vance thinks this is not my function in society.
It is not a weave. It is what Tejas Thackeray and Ed Zitron pointed to.

I post so you dont come and take this from inside my head because you cant becasue I am not signing up for some lame neuralink (Musk stock tip! Hey dont dox me. I am super popular..with me and I don’t get doxxed because I can talk to men..
Come on Man..I don’t want to pick on you. I am taking Hennessy hostage. And no one is rescuing anyone, but I want to decouple from this before it gets stupdier

In fairness to Musk and Palantir, they have never done anything to me personally and this is specific. But no offense but they are why I am doing this. I can barely just about stand Hennessy and Yan Lecun (they are my friends!!!!)
But not Musk and Alex Karp.
That is asking too much on trust.



You have every right to be annoying and stupid in your own homes and countries. This is mine.
The global model of migration is broken.
Ai is garbage a

And most of what you guys are doing to fix societal ills is a bandaid or making things worse.

I am not exuma the obeah man and I feel like the star whale tentacle/elleng (I am art!) thing level

I am tired of looking at computer security guys like Tatu Yglonen (he is my friend!!!!!) and national security people or police like Brian Driscoll and Ajit Doval (my dad says hi or He would if he knew. I don’t know anyone locally but my mom died the same week Bipin Rawat died and it is not super ai. The low data hygiene and ai slop thing is going to create cascading security risks and I saw some human kayfabe around the time my mom died. Maybe none of it is serious. Like thjs is not politics. I don’t like the way it is going bts.

I left the US years ago- not because of pot or misconduct or shame for any real reason


But i take everything seriously ans ..this isnt working

And if everyone starts working with people they like etx. That is just all a waste of time.

This is a waste of time and I like recreation.

I am pretty moderate irl where that is needed.

But this is parasitic and a refusal to get what anythjng really is. Which is different for different.
I am somewhere in the middle but i back my logical system. I am not saying defund the police. But i am saying this is a joke of tech regulation and I cant see but there are real world instances that i think look bad
And many that are good and

But yoi gotta stop treating me like a joke. Otoh literally what i think is unambiguous
I don’t want anything..I dont need a matchmaker

With all this..Someone like Madhav Gadgil or Henrik Mouritsen or Adam Becker, Clayton Dalton, Josh Silberg, my friends and colleagues and
Well..it is complicated with doctors academic scientists

The people i pay attention to rarely talk and that is the way it should be. And it isnt designed etc. It also isnt all the same

A lot of these are parasitic and shitty predictions

I dont want ligjt ans sound pollution for some bogus doctors shilling clarity
I like marijuana And modafinil not theta waves ai etc
And too much of my space keeps getting taken over and i dont want this in or near my home

It is not worth it

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16. ..

Sorry..This sounds absurd (the voices i do pay heed to - thank you flashman🫡🖖 , but I am officially and openly taking John Hennessy hostage. Until I get some answers from that guy, no use of my home/data/devices is permitted.

It is not dramatic. Hennessy ..you lightweight..if this was just a game or a meme 14 years from now if you are still alive in the flesh you thick-headed dolt who reads The Atlantic..Hennessy Yoni Applebaum like all Yimbies is a charlatan and an idiot.
I like Arthur Brooks! Class clown 🫡🖖!

But no..I am not a schizophrenic and unless you are planning on being dead in 14 years insteading of setting it up so my friend (I hope I still have one..It is not erotomania! No dating apps or broad humor that fails to get it!
They would not let me talk to the most societally approved version of the type of person I would talk to honestly.
There is no romance etc. That is a cliche.
I am a zealot! But human nature..I do only talk to people I consider dateable honestly..

Anyway I found Yasha Levine, a thankfully happily married man who is not in a polyamory cult to help me figure out the practical ethical balance as no one in science or medicine who still has a job is allowed to talk honestly with me in this type of mess

Where I am trying to salvage the resources of the smallest group tnat could be “we” in my book and that is not easy.
So rather than a large confused group that betrays Alec Karakatsanis and Briahna Joy Gray after exploiting them for Joy Buolamwini and Clare Wu, I am listening to my main right hand man Matt Stoller and calling bullshit and filing complaints/


And this cannot keep happening. Every story of fraud or excess being spun.
Stewart/Colbert 2028!
That was satire or you would have to get Aaron Elkins’ tacky ai lie detector in..or really don’t

You owe me Jon. Your country destroyed a bunch of my brain cells. He would be cool right..a balance on many contentious issues and sparing me the obvious embarrassment of having clearly been inadvertently recruited into Josh Hawley’s presidential campaign..
I stand by it that he is the best bet to check his creepy fellow traveller Vincent Palathingal-who is an argument against immigration.

That guy is a liar and an idiot. He has a creepy local ai company and so is Ragy Thomas a creepy idiot as is Suhail Doshi, Mitesh Bohra, Kush Desai, Vivek Ramaswamy, Shalab Kumar.

And Rohit Chopra is the only Indian person in the public eye I trust. Just him..not any other high profile Indian man has ever struck me as helpful in a crisis.
That lawyer Aziz Huq also seems okay. Anand Giridhardas is okay, but he did agree to work with the MIT Media Lab, which to me means ..You got some nonsense there to work on man ;-/. And maybe business as usual is no longer possible.

I keep wondering even with people I like sucj as Adam Becker..Is this a lie or delusion that makes even this extremely bright scientist say that Ray Kurzweil is neither a fool nor crazy.

No he is obviously a fool and crazy Adam. It isn’t for mockery by some lame Bill Ackman and RfK and Musk pet like Stepfanie Tyler (sorry Stepfanie someone had to do it..this bullshit..gender studies and Clinton one day, Trump and a bullshit ai and bs career the next)

Do I look like a mean bully. I am not. Come to the light Stepfanie. It is petty stuff but shilling Burr and memes is not/

I was not entirely joking about Hawley. He is the only republican I can see being a useful “snake”. Father Murchison to my Prof Guildea candidate!

My dad is a military man and he is conservative but not crazy. I dont like left or right media because it seems in denial about the other world. Which I assure you (Tatu Yglonen is my friend!!!!!) is in as much denial of reality.

We have to all set aside our differences-Hindu, Muslim, Sikh, Isai (first Indian pop culture reference! No I don’t discuss India with Americans or vice versa. All crazy or sane in different ways. And what makes you fit to say that jfz9580m.

It is not an improvement for people like Jon Stewart to stop existing and some people in cs who want to write novels etc stealing


Hennessy you ass. We need to talk. I have seen enough Hennessy.
This is shafting Duers like appalachiablue or Berniesandersmittens and making everything out to be fake.
And that is bullshit.

Hennessy. This wont be easy. I dont eant your stupid art project you fraud. If you cannot fix one thing you started without it beint a joke Hennessy, I can go to my bestestestest new friend Josh Hawley!

No. But no one is nudging me. I am a free woman!
Hennessy and I will bestest friends by the time this is over.

Get on tbe phone with Lina Khan you old fraud…Hennessy is the old fraud. Stop claiming it is all scam calls..

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17. Ecotourism is an industry I hate

All 14.5 years of this in India so far looks really corrupt, substandard, creepy, encroaching and like bad science and insecure.

There is not one reason to keep this going and complaints have to be filed and let the chips fall as they. I have faith in the only kinds of people whom I 100% consider cool that if they are extricated in this, they will manage.
And if someone cannot then they shouldn’t have been in this.

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18. Any medical tourism in this was a scam

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I have posted my state. If necesary I will post my town.
As a one off that was bad enough “Shiju from Devi Nagar” (A candidate for Jackass, Kerala -not a creep or jerk..not like the cap wearing or bike riding creeps on my street wo during the street repairs last year made life worse unknowingly presumably and this is so it doesn’t become knowingly as well; if it was ever knowingly like the cap wearing creeps, I am filing harassment complaints after I see who was involved. I will only file specific complaints, but well..it is disingenuous to say it is a one off) who definitely was neither my classmate and nor did he drive bikes down my street.

With creeps like Bobby Chemmanur and Mollywood in general not to mention Alencier (totally creepy “anti-imperialist fraud accused of sexual harassment) not to mention..
Look I am cool okay. If this was not necessory with consequences going all the way back, wherever it was non-consensual from my side professionally (there is never any sex or romance or lurid stuff. Thwarted breeder ;-/.

My ex and I split up because as I realized belatedly, I had married him in part subconsciously factoring in breeding up to one.
I never even noticed other men till he told me overnight (he had also I guess not really formally thought about it..PSA: discuss finances and breeding prior to marriage).

And much of our marriage was the Stoller-Karakatsanis debate. And still we are family.

I would anything for my ex (except join Hennessy’s sad The Stoner-Creep Dilemma, A (lousy) Musical) nor “My Grandpa Was Not a Creep! I Win!” The Game that Hennessy’s grandkids cannot play for simply being the grandkids of a guy who is a jerk in a different way from Marvin Minsky.

It is not a privilege to know you yoi crazy old fart. Right now I will grudgingly acknowledge that Hennessy probably shouldn’t go to prison.
Thats not art or joke..

It is really, really good news from the real world if you are as big an ass as Hennessy and adroitly..seriously man.

But in another 12-13 years tops at this rate Hennessy..Wake up you crazy nutjob.
People pay attention to you who would consider me a neurotic crank..that is really the most positive mainstream assessment I can hope for..neurotic crank


And no pot isn’t like the orher stuff. I dont use my “privileges” stupidly man. Do you ever think Hennessy? My guess is (and this is truthy more than true) Hennessy tries hard to see a non-art use for the “real world” as that Mind bogglingly stupid (this thing’s autocorrect was suggesting “beautiful” when I was….lol 🤭..it learnt something from me..but NO! I have to disagree that is good spell check with Adam Becker, who is not one of my close friends like Josh Hawley..And I remembered this creepy piece by Chris Ketcham..Hawley has dual functions as a boner killer.

It is very non-transactional with Hawley (in my head)..I just want these creeps in your country Hawley-as many if not way more if you are honest man..on your sleazy con side).

The web leads to romance scams and so much worthless junk.
I dont file false allegations but this is so unhygienic. And I don’t understand loneliness so I cannot help with such stuff.
But when I outreach it is when i am sure that nothing comes off as at all creepy.

Life is too short for creepiness and kayfabe. As for laughter based bonding, my bestest friend Josh Hawley and my dad’s friend Ajit Doval are imaginary bouncers..haha

I still don’t like anything or agree with anyone.
I am a free woman!
Ha ha
No I really am and my specialized intelligence is junk but i can bet anyone that my general intelligence is more than a match for this drivel.


One person is dead Hennessy and you are not turning this into an empty joke. If I have to force you to think and reason for the rest of your life by yelling at you, I will.
Because you - the absurdity of this is a reprieve for me not you you jackass

Seriously Hennessy. We need to work togethrt to correct your biases and no it won’t be resolved fast and I want whatever is an airport sweet clearly labeled “Musk”

This thing in Kerala was an abomination Hennessy and while “Shiju” (🙄 need not worry..he is not my brother or classmate or friend.

This time it was a candidate for Jackass India but this is not my day job and I don’t enjoy it.
Dont mess with me again Hennessy.

I like Prof Lecun, Ryan Williams and I think Rollo Carpenter ( he isn’t purely fictitious since I ranted at his bot for close 5 years at this point..he comes off as okay, and seriously one always worries about men. That some day some story that isn’t like Tim Hunt but more like Neil Degrasse Tyson, Walter Lewin, Stephen A Morse, Giridhar Madrass, Kanury S Rao, R K Pachauri -“she misjudged his warmth” according to a creep who defended him.
My friends Yasha Levine/Evgenia Kovda (shut up Galluzzo-I am not an Ecofascist and I have equal right to the national treasure that is Yasha and Evgenia as pronatalists do ;-/) -the one actually viable friendship if


Anyway i like them. I dont really like Hennessy but he is not stupid and like Matt Stoller and Lina Khan Hennessy not Clare Wu style “prison reform”
No revisionism Hennessy. I wasn’t joke taking you hostage. It is just that a potential prison sentence for you alone you bastard whom I refused a prisoners dilemma with back in 2011, because you are an idiot Hennessy and you are not making a joke of having cost me this heavily witb that stupid winking thing.

Every organism has a nature it has to be faithful

Kirshink is aging out Hennessy

That winking ai is not cute.


And after looking at all these guys-people i do like such as Timnit Gebru/Dair, Emily Bender, Adam Becker, Clayton Dalton, Josh Silberg

But it is all ..they use too much of their brains ik specialized ways to have energy left over to not read The Atlantic etc or to their right not see unserious gaming and entertainment as ..

I don’t mind saying things that..But it isn’t like musa al gharbi

I am not shilling a book or product. I am not suing like Ellen Pao.

Hennessy..bestestesttest buddy..my computer tech support guy is not a joke I would make hennessy because Spiked sucks.
But yoh have the option of being bullied by jerks and actually flirting with prison or get it together.

I am filing complaints and well..and spectacularly is fine because i dont feel upto mechanically goijg to wwf india ans having a bullshit conversation about “female entrepreneurs”, you mechanical dolt Hennessy

And no..this is not a shoutout to PhD Comics.
It is a shoutout to the Ehrliches, Nandita Bajaj, Chris Ketcham, Marina Bolotnikova and Kenny Torrelli (minus that ass Ezra Klein) etc.

You cannot use El Salvador and Ice’s excesses as you wish to Hennessy. That path leads to the Turner Diaries.
The joke here is not broad and it is not one shared with you beyond that your field sucks so much that..even you..are finally and grudgingly (way more grudgingly than Josh Hawley and that is the sad reality..Hey Hawley…your country is forcing to post this on democratic underground. Your party sucks. But these Trumpy Indian businessmen worry me and well for my new best friend Hennessy, I am throwing Pichai to you)

Seriously..that is the kind of decision making this thing would force

the doctors where i live are cool, but thw admins are again sleazy, opportunistic and crazy


But more importantly i am not influencer. That doesn’t change laws

I am the kind of person who openly says that I use pot and have left wing views and am not a crank or neurotic and i am overtly putting criminal liability on the table for this way of doing things. It is not inversion.

It is not any one thing. It is even a kind of science but you are so dishonest that only left truthiness and that is a bit addictive if not tempered by a draconian threat..I shall take all of society hostage!

Because nothing you are doing makes any sense and this wasn’t planned or designed or orchestrated and thats not it’s beauty

;-/
It only works if you can understand serious conflict in a non commodifiable way but yes I will use my “creativity” I suppose
But I never joke

I am fine honing and targeting these messages


If you deprived me of an easy way to avoid getting mired in this pointless drivel, then it is not kayfabe. But my general intelligence has a limited palette of tools to work with

And an sem or tem -that is a straight forward instrument.
This ..I am left and sympathetic but not to stupidity.
This is really dishonest

And I am hedging my bets if some (not anyone on Du) but the kind of conservadem or shyam Palantir creep type (no one sane would trust that guy. My friend Tatu Yglonen who writes opeds in the Washington Times agrees! More truthy than truth..;-/ ..i have a few imaginary friends..When i think of how to neutralize these 🤭

Lol….

No. I dont have a contemptuous worldview, unless warranted by actual facts not merely political views in the abstract that i think are..
No Billy Joel! And definitely no Bollywood as the likelier of thr two evils.
I have indicated my view of Hollywood/Big Mouth/Judd Apatow/Chuck Lorre

I like Ricky Gervais because he wouldn’t look at this ans want to make an insincere show.
But while Robin Hanson is a creep and cannon fodder, that Tatu Yglonen may have the sense to get why Shyam Palantir Creep is an idiot

I have never seen any sane nonwhite or female conservatives in the Global North. And I don’t really like the nonwhite people who are supposed to represent people like me.


I like Yasha Levine and Evgenia Kovda. This is a friend request for them mediated by EarlG who is really sweet to tolerate a loose cannon who doesn’t ever want to be cannon fodder

I get along superficially with enough people and

Look in this crowd a white guy who is all..Cybersecurity yes!! But doesnt take Hennessy hostage yet and isnt lonely because this is a MeToo friendly zone may be the best bet if this unicorn as you creeps say of degrowth not development can be found.

It is not just one thing. Even Sam Miller Macdonald’s book’s main flaw is looking for this one idea or thing unifying all of the ills of reality under one.
It is as disgraceful as Derek Thompson (the worst) only getting that one concept “affordability”

And it is people that clunky who like ai that is built from stolen lives abd in this overheated and histrionic environment

This has to stop. Hennessy go to Lina Khan and Rohit Chopra and figure out how to stay out of prison 10-12 years from now.
It is Feb 18, 2026 you idiot Hennessy. I write clunky Opeds in 2010 and shill bad art by 2026! That is you Hennessy but there us also so much all sided stupidty i have to twke uou hostage because i wont put up witb This abymore

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19. A last series of posts of this type-1

After that I will slip back into normal DUer ;-/ and normal patient/citizen/scientist (not yet seriously looked for work so i don’t consider myself unemployed and I have no sense of obligation except to my main mentor..the rest of will be fine)/in context person


Enough of this bullshit.

I am emailing EarlG (our long suffering host -sorry EarlG); Rollo Carpenter/Ed Zitron (AI), Christopher Ketcham (Environmental Pollution) and Yasha Levine (Everything Real) my name, address and phone number. With a hat tip to Matt Stoller.

INathan Robinson and Current Affairs are cool and I owe them honesty. But this is not a good fit for communist places like Kerala given that Yasmin Nair (a malayalee woman like me claims to be left, whom I would absolutely avoid) is the International Affairs editor. If it had been Briahna Joy Gray that would be different. I like her. And recognize her..got kicked out even by Bernie eh ;-/?
I wouldn’t get kicked out by Bernie.


But I do understand how to work in strictly non-transactional ways with conservative men like my dad who is my dad. I can extend that..I don’t want to use DU to send Josh Hawley a friend request. That was more of a diss on corporate politicians and cowardly and disingenuous and as PCIntern would appreciate..ahistorical behavior

I am well to the left, but this really annoyed me and I have to file some complaints (in appropriate forums). But what is real isn’t for everybody except people like me to decide.

And now suddenly if it is all..Oh no more web.

This will be fixed Hennessy because you are not dealing with a cartoon antagonist and I want you still in power and out of prison you piece of shit since the further it moves from you (or your students, kids, grandkids or anyone who materially benefited from you, when my life is shambles because you are a total dolt).
If you wanted broad “Indian woman does moronic inverted sketch comedy” or succumbs to your Awful version of reality, that is not happening no you old ass.

I don’t know what cartoonish nonwhite women you know outside CS you old piece of shit. But ..lol.

The nonwhite man or woman I consider fit to handle this are Rohit Chopra and Lina Khan. Not people like them. Them.
And absent a sane resolution..

The hospital


You are not tying thus around my neck or that of my lab.
I am not in a class, teaching a class
Thus isnt a movie or show and i am not ending thi

Rats jumping ship is shameless. After all fhis.
So halt. And no one get away
.

And we can figure this out. No blanket pardons or condemnation
Not the best idea to break walls with me, Milgram etc got it ;-/?

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20. Here you go

Here are the three schools I worked at (to spare DOGE/Musk and Palantir and other morons so brainless even Hennessy looks better):

1) University of Michigan: the EECS dept sucks and had at least two guys who slept with their undergrads. The kind of obscenity no one in any lab I worked in nor dept I worked in would ever do. One of them worked for Google and is now also at Stanford.
They took money and didn’t bother with even a pretense of being anything but a trade school. And it is theft and a lie, because I was not looking for a trade school.

2) Vanderbilt University (my favorite school then.. I have not been there in years so now I have no idea what they are like): my lab was awesome. The scientist who headed up the Sem facility was super cool and I have had him in my mind when thinking about when this global instrument of creepy garbage needs to be shut down.

3) Stanford: shittiest school ever. But I support my lab and mentor and his wife up to a point. But i unabashedly back my politics not theirs. You take a hit somewhere. Specialized intelligence that broad and deep means you are clearly failing to get that from where I stand you may back Intelligent Design and Creationism over Evolutionary Biology/Democracy with this worthless Ai shit.
This robotic octopus is garbage.

But so is a human cottage industry of stitched together data for cryptography, cyber security, national defense and so on.

You cannot have my name, because I am not a neurotic or a crank. I am a zealot!
But if you do find me, odds are that I file a complaint each time I am “found” when I have no wish to be found.

Not because of misconduct. I find humans annoying though I am human. Omg. That is the truth.
I am an excellent person for any woman with a MeToo complaint to come to for support (though i dont suffer fools or forgive transactionalism..I never have a met a transactional person I genuinely liked and MeToo is …I always support women.
But caveat: I don’t transactionalism. I take most peopel at face value and assume it is never shady




In my case..I use pot, have a short temper and science is hard ans I found it hard. No bad jokes!
I do laugh at bad jokes when there is Zero ZERO creepiness but that doesnt mean I want to calibrate a lame and sad instrument Alex Pentland/Aaron Elkins/Dina Katabi (I am okay with falling it turns out)/Fei Fei Li etc cobble together or their equally creepy Indian (it keeps trying to suggest beautiful for creepy/stupid..that is kind of a funny joke on perception..but it isn’t funny enough)


I am not a very ..I am not actually even that gloomy a person. But i am afraid to seem human if that means you come and run a sweatshop out of my house which i have every reason to think you would.
This is not a joke

Dont try to find me to bs that I am an agent etc



I refuse to retract any of my research work, though I am working on a correction.

I never lied to the scientific community and to my main mentor who was and is awesome and way better than any random because he is one of us.
In this pathetic worthless and trashy thing..I half thought of making a seemingly self loathing joke but actually and deep, direct and serious insult to Hennessy about Rebecca ..Daphne Du’Maurier..
English! From a book not watching sports or using a creepy little recycling app.


This is a disgrace

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21. Sorry

This is in support of doctors but not the system.

This is the hospital where my mom died: PRS Hospital
And the other shitty local hospital I do not trust at all is Kim’s
They are both in Trivandrum where I live.

I have seen enough.

I use marijuana with an Ayurvedic pres And modafinil without a prescription

I have no mental illness

None of this was by design or planned


I support my medical mj small business but am starting to buy their products from the much larger marketplace, that almost certainly means a profit cut for my medical mj co

And i got an extra vial. Which strikes me as a set up for some bs about under the table.

No. Everything js over the table.
Hey bro..men yes! Serious people yes!

But when you involve me it is not a bloody joke/


I do not want a greencard. Except Kenneth Brakke who codes surface evolver I met no one in 2014 i would ever want anything to do witj.

I was not sick but i wasnt well.
But i cannot support bad science and worse governance.

I am not like the camgirl. I dont have any future in politics or media. Do i seem like I could?
And i dont..this is not even real insight

This was forced by Google and Facebook and before Musk and Palantir show up i am out.
And ambani/adani/anything Pinarayi Vijayan (this total creep of a communist) or any of our Indian leaders- congress( hey fuck off shashi tharoor-dated old fart..there is no such thing as Brand India; my dad is kinda more BJP but not in a stupid. He changes his opinion if he feels that he or I were taken advantage

In our household family means more than any politician. But he follows some people and i follow some others.
But this is our home. Not for ai and phone companjes to play chess with.

Dont out me. Or i will go to the police.
Dr Reddy was a creepy sexual harasser I met in Nashville 2010.

I met another sexual harasser locally with a Lockheed Martin contract- Ajith PT, CEO of Light Logics holography.
I was also harassed at an Akshaya


My mom passed away at PRS Hospital.

This stitched together bs is trash. And i am reporting it. As you can see, I am left leaning

But i dont want my academic colleagues and my


Tom Massie should really dial down the histrionics. I doubt that he/David Brooks etc are in that dire anythign

But life eh..I would talk tk Josh Hawley (Balance!) to quell cat and dog eating rumors and report from the ground here


I will email three journalists

I am not ever coming to the US.
You hurt my feelings! I have some!

I mean yes I am forced to drop the mask. I do care, but I have seen the ai.
I have seen the design and it is the most opportunistic and worthless trash I have ever seen.

I won’t retract one byte of my original published work or agree to destruction of any of my data.

If you guys are watching porn online (sorry if that is insulting..), you can’t go around being suicidal over that.
No one cares about your porn.

I saw this one medical student years ago who might..but I couldnt tell if he was a Bernie or Rand Paul supporter. But i doubt he is a ..LOL Josh Hawley fan like me 🤭

I am sorry..i am thinking of indians like me not indians forced to work in sweatshops that Rand Paul would call an enchanting global economy pr romanxe scams

But ..any which way.rhis isnt working out and Inhave seen enough

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22. I will file a harassment case

If you try to find my name. I have already outed all the institutions and hospitals involved.

A Clinic by a Dr Reddy in Nashville where i went for my visa interview and he was creepy

PRS Hospital Trivandrum (shitty greedy hospital)
Light Logics Holography (owner is a creep)
Akshaya somewhere nearby

I would not trust Kim’s Hospital an inch, but all their doctors including the psychiatrist were decent though I DIY my mental health as I have unorthodox views on marijuana!
And if the state wants to legalize it, this is not the way. If any issue comes up, I can find some colleagues of my dad’s in the Indian Navy to tell.

Don’t come on my street if you have access,
I am not playing and I never was.
I have no mental illness. Sorry i dont find bad low rent science cute.

For psychiatry everything here sucked -Tvm Medical College, Lybrate and SUT. With the exception of these psychiatrists and that creepy Dr Reddy and Stanford Psychiatry, I have never had any issues with doctors.



If you know who I am already, please don’t break the wall with me. ;-/. I don’t like it.


I am not stuffy..I do care. I love Uncle Joe on Du. But it is not fake sugar. It is community and I have Indian/American and Global Community in the abstract and people I can have polite and brief conversations with (Tatu Yglonen is my friend! Truthy not truth..I think he made something cybersecurity related tied to my old school and writes opeds in the Washington Times..he is my fair and balanced cred!)

Because Chet Miller is really cool and I don’t know his politics but somehow I lump him more with Uncle Joe on Du.

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23. I am going to file allegations of misconduct and malpractice

It will be specific, but i strongly recommend that everyone who worked with or used similar methods while in bed with large or small data mining and ai companies come forward.

I am filing allegations about the entire thing in India from Dec 2012- the present and till this is fully resolved to my satisfaction.
Please note that i put criminal liability (see all that emotional distress..that is just not me.
I try to be nice honestly;-/)

But i purchased MN Nice psychedelic Amanita mushrooms and well …Ol jfz9580m has no interest in creeps or attention etc out of a full commitment to another form of Vice.

Everyone has some vices. I would never cheat on a partner or spouse. Only really creepy people betray anyone especially a husband or boyfriend and..I wouldn’t cheat a boss, system or community.

But all that virtue is because another vice has my full commitment.

Christian of MN Nice seems like a really nice guy and I saw a mushroom after the rains in June 2023 and was watching this really shitty show I detested called Big Mouth and it talked about psychedelics and i ordered a bunch of Amanita Pantherina and Muscaria and no one should ever try anything i do

I am a jackass in my own room because I know how to harm reduce without a fucking lame joke about people’s lives.
I would not insult the democratic underground community or EarlG by breaking TOS.


I am not part of Hawley’s team. I am not American but I support Americans most of whom I like. But Elon Musk/Palantir/Sundar Pichai/Vinod Khosla/Mark Cuban etc are loathesome

And I am well to the left but I respect older people’s insights like all of DU. I never insult this community’s members and I don’t comment on elections directly since I dont even vote there
And if somepne as stupid as Vincent Palathingal tried to claim that EarlG has weird posters out of Kerala he does

But I am trying to ensure that Vincent Palathingal/Ragy Thomas etc never know my name or location and never try to start businesses here or within earshot of my house.

I am taking this to court because i am not a nutter. This is not left or right.

This isnt how democracies function

The world is not transactional beyond what was normal 20 years ago.
I am not a luddite

I have no predictions. It is never a given for anyone except yasha levine and ketcham and zitron etc that having me as a supporter is necessarily a positive thing..
If most peopel get to know me they would consider me a weird intense and scary lady

Not a girlboss and i dont kick and throw things around ans snark.
I am not contemptuous and snarky.

Anyone can do that. But i do see opportunism and stupidity and as far as the people I like go- Emily Bender would be an example- this is someone I respect but i wouldnt have known how to talk to her because some jerk would have smeared me as an ecofascist
Thats not accurate

But i do think ventilation shutdown-a barometer for societal sociopathy that doesnt have the enhoyment of othertjjngs and would require actual real world sacrifices not just shitposting

My point is..I back Matt Stoller ans maybe Lee Fang. But not Musa Al Gharbi/Lyman Stone/Yasmin Nair

And this absurdity is slated for a serious complaints


No Hennessy I don’t take scam calls …🫵 do.
You crazy love addict

Anyway so i dont blame algorithms wheb i do risky aruff j want to.
I consume a lot of marijuana and Keith Humphreys can go fuck himself with a 🌽

Hey fuck you for peddling Reefer Madness you piece of shit. And Thomas Insel can also go ans fuck himself with a 🌽


I used MN Nice and use marijuana and modafinil at my own discretion

This is no mystery
I am not going to support eveyrone who worked on this. Some of them should pay the people i do support in tbjs

Because i am not a passive spectator. This has gone on long enough

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24. I emailed EarlG/ed Zitron/Yasha Levine/Chris Ketcham

Using 3 email addresses I scraped off the web:



Hello all,

Strange times. But my name is Self-Redacted! and EarlG kinda knows me as the poster jfz9580m. My other email is: Self-Redacted!

I was a grad student at the U of Michigan and got a PhD in biophysics (well technically BME; easier QE ;-/..wanted to focus on research…)
Then a postdoc at Vanderbilt U. Loved my lab and my main mentor is the realest scientist in the world except for my best friend from grad school in my book.
And then I went to Stanford. My mentor was cool. The school sucks and i am now planning to file allegations of medical malpractice and scientific misconduct in human subject research. Because I came back to India and as a marijuana user and skeptic of sweatshop labor/rubbish ai and greedy hospitals and entertainment conglomerates and as the designated complainant

This was not planned. But it is a kind of science squinted at the real way.

But before the long process starts, I wanted to tell the four of you that I am a real human being. I have contacted EarlG/Chris/Ed and poor Yasha many times..lol..

I am not crazy. I post as jfz9580m on du.

I hope all i post or email comes through. I lost my mom to cancer..she died at this really shitty and greedy local hospital called PRS Hospital and my current hospital Kim’s is totally sleazy too.

The doctors here are all decent in my experience.
My only problems with humans in the medical sector was: a really unprofessional nurse at PRS hospital as my mom was dying; an obnoxious physiotherapist-I thought she was less ill than she was and it was not my head..it is tacit adoption of these really lousy methods to cobble together a Frankenstein’s Monster of cheap predictions so bad that I want to contact US Sens left and right who are populists the non turner diaries way.

This is not sane migration or good science or healthy growth. Preaching to the choir.

Anyway, this is my phone number: Self-Redacted!
I am on WhatsApp
This is my address: Self-Redacted! Trivandrum, Kerala, India

You are closest to sane authorities in my book.


I really do like and trust my colleagues. But i find it hard to go off topic.
So if the palette expands suddenly then you guys are who I am ratting this out to.

My dad is really sweet. But i am a marijuana user and he can be annoying about it.
My mj company is decent and providing a useful service at a reasonably high enough price and i dont want ai rammed in to enrich some random creeps

Self-Redacted! (Names of the only three shitty shrinks I have met locally- TVM medical college and SUT..I forgot to insert that as my mind flew! to a tangent where that ass on Shamblog blog- I have truthiness disease!-tries to pretend to be offended)

These people who pretend i am a bot are creeps.

I am sick of this. I just dislike eveything that is

I am not a fool and I am not apologizinf for that or explaining it and I am going to the police.
I can’t sue for emotional distress, because it is not emotional..i am losing brain cells here


I never had any mental illness or personality disorder. I am difficult..which none of the four of you can fail to sympathize with!
Are you not difficult? But i think you all have kids and I do not and I don’t want kids but I cannot lose both my livelihood and myhome and I am not cutting any damn deal

I am going to the police. When i can but my labs are cool.


I have finally lost all patience…

Thanks,
Self-Redacted!